It's all about priorities..

It's 12:30 at night... 

What me doing? 

Eat bread with paneer sabji... 

Khana khaya tha... 

But pta nahi yeh tan ki bhook h ya maan ki.. 

Tummy was full but heart was empty.. 

Hua Kya?? 

Kuch ni.. 

At times.. U feel tum kafi nahi ho.. 

U see I dnt know how to put all that glossy, glowy makeup... 

Or fake eyelashes.. 

Or that multiple layers of foundation & blending and mixing and what not... 

Mujhe nahi ata... 

Na mujhse hota h.. 

I do feel little at times... 

That where I would be in comparison to all those beautiful bodied monsters who survive on the sale blood and bathe in body mists.. 

Mujhko to yeh bhi samjh ni ata ki yeh deo aur body mist m kya farak h... 

Ya kaunsi achi h aur kaunsi buri.. 

Aur wo kese ekdum seedhe seedhe match krke eyeliner lagate h.. 

Merese to ni lgta... I try.. I tried.. I tried.. But naa.. Cnt do it... 

At times I feel that I lack in the girly girl department.. 

But leave me in a desert to fend for myself I can... 

Leave in group of people who can't see eye to eye I can handle it.. 

Or throw me a house decoration or maintenance or designing something.. 

I'm your person.. 

I can handle a lot of things.... From personal to professional.. 

But yeh ladkiyon wale latke jhatke ni ho paate... 

So all the guys who are reading this.. 

Plz... Look beyond the latka jhatkas.. 

Beyond the multiple layers of makeup( tough one I know).. 

But ask yourself... 

Is she someone to whom I can just sit and talk... 

Can I trust her with holding up my life when I shatter down... 

Usually these things don't need much makeup or fabulous body or killer figure or straight and coloured hair... 

All they need is a human that is your personal cheerleader... 

Someone who can make u quit your sleep & work hard enough so that u get rest but not that hard that u get exhausted.. 

Shakal, surat, figure, body, color, hair everything can wash off in some years.. They no longer will hold importance after some 10-15 years... 

Will you be able to live with that person then.. 

Is the question... 

Kya ankhein band krke bhi aap iss insaan ko trust kroge... 

I hv been frnd, bestfrnd, rakhi sister, muh boli sister to many many people but gf only once before... 

So mereko nahi ata wo sb... Ki haye mera pati mera devta h... 

Suno jee... Ese wese.. 

Aur bahut saare baki log bhi honge ese... 

To them.. 

It's ok.. 

It's ok to not be experienced.. 

It's ok to be coal till the time u meet the jeweller... 

It's ok to be useless to someone who doesn't care.. 

It's ok to be not loved,  not cherished, not held... 

Love should never be on cost of your self respect or be treated like ghr ka maal.. Or someone who doesn't make u their priority list... 

Abki personal & professional priority hoti h... 

Make sure u figure out one before jumping onto other but still are certain if the 1st...

Kesa lga gyaanvani?

Lemme know in comments.