Do u feel scared?
Like cold feet scared...
Like mind numbing scared..
Like shaking legs scared..
With me whnevr someone asks me to meet them..
I met a classmate from school & he said let's go out for coffee, catch up, what am I doing..
I was shaking ki kya bolu..
Failed civil aspirant hu..
Ya fir berozgaar post graduate hu..
Sahab to in his words "balako ka jeewan kharab kr rahe h" I. E he's professor for PEC..
Han han engineering wala..
3 baar cancel kr chuki hu..
Itni baar to mene usse poore school life m baat nahi ki jitni baar mana kr diya...
At times I feel being ambitious has its own toll, specialy when u dnt think of anything else...
Now I think isse acha to aiyashi hi kr leti..
Upsc k chakar m na koi kand kia na koi daru, cigarette, na koi boyspanti..
Kya fayda hua??
29yrs ki life m zero enjoy krke baithi hu.. Kal marjau aur chitragupta puche..
"Bolo balike kya kiya zindagi m? "
I think I'll be rani from queen who'll say..
"Mera to itna life kharab ho gya.. Itna kharab ho gya h... ??
Apne mummy daddy ki har baat mani h mene..
Teachers ki har baat mani h mene..
Tum jiska naam lo uski baat mani h mene..
Fir bhi ias ni bani "
I feel chitragupta is going to start crying ki bacha itna dukh..
Tumko m swarg ka ias bnaunga...
I hope waha to puppy eyes ka jadu chal jae...
Aur kisi k koi ese irade h to bta do