Swarg ki ias

Do u feel scared? 

Like cold feet scared... 

Like mind numbing scared.. 

Like shaking legs scared.. 

Happens.. 

With me whnevr someone asks me to meet them.. 

I met a classmate from school & he said let's go out for coffee, catch up, what am I doing.. 

I was shaking ki kya bolu.. 

Failed civil aspirant hu.. 

Ya fir berozgaar post graduate hu.. 

Sahab to in his words "balako ka jeewan kharab kr rahe h" I. E he's professor for PEC.. 

Han han engineering wala.. 

And me.. 

No comments... 

3 baar cancel kr chuki hu.. 

Itni baar to mene usse poore school life m baat nahi ki jitni baar mana kr diya... 

At times I feel being ambitious has its own toll, specialy when u dnt think of anything else... 

Now I think isse acha to aiyashi hi kr leti.. 

Upsc k chakar m na koi kand kia na koi daru, cigarette, na koi boyspanti.. 

Kya fayda hua?? 

29yrs ki life m zero enjoy krke baithi hu.. Kal marjau aur chitragupta puche..

"Bolo balike kya kiya zindagi m? "

I think I'll be rani  from queen who'll say..

"Mera to itna life kharab ho gya.. Itna kharab ho gya h... ??

Apne mummy daddy ki har baat mani h mene.. 

Teachers ki har baat mani h mene.. 

Tum jiska naam lo uski baat mani h mene.. 

Fir bhi ias ni bani "

I feel chitragupta is going to start crying ki bacha itna dukh.. 

Tumko m swarg ka ias bnaunga... 

I hope waha to puppy eyes ka jadu chal jae... 

Aur kisi k koi ese irade h to bta do