Afsos.. Had to publish it again

M har baar sochti hu ki isse jyada afsos mujhe civils m fail hone ka nahi ho skta.. Aur bhagwan haar baar mujhe galat sabit kr deta hai... 

Aaj raat mere upar class windom fodi gyi.. Mere face pr glass uda.. Shyd agr mere glasses na hote to abhi kisi hospital m padi hoti... 

Aur yeh sb kis kisne? 

Mere cousin brother ne... 

Aur kyu? 

Kyunki koi karan hi ni tha... 

Kyunki usko lgta h har cheez pr uska adhir hai.. 

Aur jb isse jee nahi bhara to darwaja todne ki koshish ki.. 

Nahi toota to inverter fenk diya stairs se.. Acid, pani sb uchla.. 

Shyd agr darwaja band na hota to abhi m acid attack victim ki tarah hospital m hoti... 

Aur jb isse bhi dil nahi bhara to maa behan ki galiyan nikali.. 

Marne ki dhamki di.. 

Aur us samay mujhe vastav m maane maan kiya ki kash mera civils ho jaata.. 

Kash kuch ho jata... 

Us samay apne jinda hone pr mujhe mujhe itna afsos hua.. 

Mein apne maa, papa, behan sbke aage khadi thi.. 

Sbke liye sheild thi.. 

Pr maje ki baat pta h kya.. 

Meri sheild koi tha hi nahi.. 

Badi baat nahi krti lekin pitamah bhishm ki tarah bano ki shaiya pr mera jeewan kata h.. 

Shyd sir abhi niche latak raha h.. 

Aur police aai.. 

As usual kuch ni ki.. 

Aur afsos hua.. 

Pichli baar bhi violence k baad inhone paise khila kr case rafa dafa krwaya tha.. 

Is baar bhi esa na ho.. 

I felt horrible.. 

I felt bad.. 

I felt dharti faat jae.. M sama jaun..