The last time I felt so much pressure and anxiety in my life was when I was supposed to update a dashboard at work and I made an error. The client sent a mail within minutes adding everyone, my manager, GL and Head. Since then I'd wake up in the middle of the night checking my mail.
Ever since the 10th, I've dreamt extensively of humpback dolphins, national parks and whatnot. I mostly wake up having to decide between two options. And the worst part is, none of this is voluntary.
The pressure of one more failure, of being unemployed, of having no where to go and nothing to do has to get you at some point.
Nonetheless, I was determined to start today and so I did. Read yesterday's paper and current affairs, my own notes for optional(psychology) and ethics.
Feels good to be able to vent it out here. Hoping for better tomorrows..
Ever since the 10th, I've dreamt extensively of humpback dolphins, national parks and whatnot. I mostly wake up having to decide between two options. And the worst part is, none of this is voluntary.
The pressure of one more failure, of being unemployed, of having no where to go and nothing to do has to get you at some point.
Nonetheless, I was determined to start today and so I did. Read yesterday's paper and current affairs, my own notes for optional(psychology) and ethics.
Feels good to be able to vent it out here. Hoping for better tomorrows..
