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CSE 2022: Plan/ Strategy/ Daily Routine

This is an everything thread for all stuff 2022. You can post your daily goals, end-of-the-day updates, weekly targets or any weird thing you use to measure your progress. You can put into words & post the soul-sucking sadness that is threatening to devour you & your productivity. You can write what made your day & let others experience the happiness too, at least vicariously. This is a thread to pick each other up. This is a thread to keep each other accountable. This is a no-judgement zone.

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“This is one more piece of advice I have for you: don't get impatient. Even if things are so tangled up you can't do anything, don't get desperate or blow a fuse and start yanking on one particular thread before it's ready to come undone. You have to realize it's going to be a long process and that you'll work on things slowly, one at a time.”

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood


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Thanks for starting this thread, mate. 

In March, when the mains results came, I was quite shattered to be frank. I was fully expecting to clear the mains stage at least, and half expecting to get my name somewhere in the rank list, at least at the bottom. However, the result was on unexpected lines. When you devote so much of your time and energy to something, and it consistently gives you nothing in return, it’s draining. It took me all the strength in the world to stand back up on my feet again post my repeated failures at prelims in 2019. I found the strength I needed to do that from this platform. I found a mask I named Patootie. Yet, it is so much harder to find that the second time around, after you’ve been knocked down. This exam is ruthless, and it owes you no debt, no matter how much you think it does. 

So, when I failed mains last time, my immediate course of action was self preservation. I needed to find myself a job. I needed to find myself again. I know how clichè that sounds, because I also agree there is never one you. You keep changing, and your experiences keep moulding you into the person you are at any given point in time. I guess, I needed to find out who I was, outside the scope of this exam. I did not want to tell people I was preparing for an exam. I wanted to feel like anything but a failure, who took on more than he could chew. I wanted to feel worthy again. Of something. 

So, I found a job. I consider myself extremely lucky. And I have performed reasonably well at my job since. I like some of my work, and can live with most of it. It offers a good life. Yet, I am somehow drawn back to this platform and you people, over and over again. I can’t simply shake this off. 

When@whatonly and@AJ_ cleared the paper, I felt that joy in my heart and wondered how their lives would have been like at that very moment. When@MaeveWiley wrote a frustrated and heartfelt post today, I felt every bit of it too. When I read @D503’scomments, I somehow always feel connected with their experience. This community understands and feels, and somehow, I feel there’s a part of me that I can reveal here that one who is not intricately connected with the exam would never understand. 

At this point, for me, it is not even about the job for me. I want to clear the exam. It is as simple as that. It is an intensely personal struggle and it has been for at least the past 2 years. Good thing is, I finally feel that I can truly give my best again towards that goal. The time for austerity is done, now is the time for audacity. “Audacity of hope? “

I missed the mains cutoff by 5 marks.  When I was telling my mom about it over the phone, I broke down crying. I didn’t know that I felt that emotional about it any longer, given I hadn’t touched my books properly for over 9 months. Since I failed to clear mains, I was nowhere close to where I needed to be to get the service of my choice. However, I did feel robbed at that moment. I don’t know why, can’t put my finger on it. However, as time passed, I realised it was the best possible outcome. Maybe I did a few things right. I don’t know what they were and even if I did identify them, whether they would work again. Yet, somewhere in my marksheet, I’ve found my will to try again. 

This forum carried me the last time I was active on it. I’m just trying to stand up again, and I didn’t know where else to go. Thanks for this thread, mate. 2022. Maybe, just maybe. 


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@Patootie so, so, so, so happy to see you back friend. Sending you all the best wishes I have plus some borrowed from here and there for 2022 :)

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What do you do when feeling low?

I talk to people who I know believe in me. Not the ones who speak all nice just to make you feel nice but those who truly believe in you.

I sleep  sometimes. It solves the issues magically somehow. 

I do things that make me feel alive like writing. I sit down and write what I am feeling. That can be a good way to understand the roots of your blues. Just trying to be honest with yourself helps. But also, be kind to yourself.

And sometimes, the problem isn't our inability to understand but a deep sense inside that we aren't being understood. Some days ago I sat down and just watched one of my favourite movies, the lunchbox. I felt the same feeling of being understood as I felt when I watched it in 2013. It was as if the movie was giving me a warm hug.

I listen to songs. You feel a little less burdened with the weight of your pain when you know people have gone through the same pain and they have recorded that pain so beautifully in words. Like, there is this song called "Man Bawra" from the movie Gippi. The line goes like, "meri yaadon ki khuli chaadrein gathri baandhe na". That so nicely encapsulates my obsession with nostalgia. And I feel okay when I listen to it because now I am not alone.

There may be things that do the trick for you. Find those things, Do those things. It's okay to keep an hour for yourself.

Sometimes, even studying helps. Even 2 hours of intense focus of study shows you what you are capable of and that helps too. 

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Hi, friends

I haven't been alright since the 10th. Before this, when failure struck, I have never really questioned my abilities. But this week has been different. One day, I thought about quitting this process altogether. The other day, I have decided to throw away my sim card, burn all the bridges and become a hermit. I know I may sound a bit melodramatic but that's how it is. All I have been wanting is to cry for the past week. Thankfully, some of the people around me have been there for me.

I think I won't log in or post here on forum for the forseeable future. I think I need to be alone for a while. I wish you all the very best for your endevours.

Bye. :)

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@Neyawn 

Did my optional once but as you say doing once is not doing at all, now thinking to give daily 2 hours for optional answer writing, Prelims 2021 was scary and I have developed the prelims phobia, trying to do an integrated preparation for both prelims and mains and will focus completely on prelims by test series in March.

should I write mains test as of now?

Also waiting for your blog for us (first attempt in 2022)

I woke up at 5 am just to tell you this, please get the exam calendar right. Not March. If you are poor at Prelims, you do it from December 31st. Period. Man, it takes 4 month. If you have not cracked prelims before make that five.

Give the exam the respect it deserves. I had a guy who flunked and said I have it two months. The next year, he flunks again and said this time I gave it three month, then the next year he goes four months and flunks.

In the last attempt, I asked him how many months? He said sir - five months. That’s how you are thrown out of the game.

He would have been much better if he had given five months in the first attempt , if any later attempts would have been taken, they would be diminishing ..

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Hey everyone, hope you all doing good. I am glad to be back here after my first debacle at prelims. Great to see you all ticking those targets off. You're going to see me here now till UPSC 2022 prelims. 

I have tried to join UPSC 2022 Yeolpumta group but it says its already full. Admin can you just increase the size or something like that to accommodate me. TIA :)

Plan is - 2.5 months of mains prep + little tit bits of prelims as well daily so that I don't fck up during prelims. 

Update time : 10:00 PM daily. 

Today's targets - 

1. 1/3 - security 

2. CA class 

3. Paper 2 A - PSIR - Topic 1 + PYQ 

4. Rivers - Notes 

5. Newspapers 

6. Editorials 

Today's quote : Dreams remain dream because one misses the most important thing - ACTION. 

Great days everyone. And feel free to share your everyday learnings, actions and work as well as failures and fears for the sole purpose that this thread doesn't turn monotonous. You all have us all here. 



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Targets for 21st November 2021:

  • Rights, Equality & Justice from SR Notes
  • GS 2: Point 2, 3 & 6 (1/2)
  • Ethics Class
  • Noosepaper
  • Anki No Due
  • Answer Writing
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Some thoughts which occured to me today : Long read, please read at your own discretion. 

1.Understanding and confronting your feelings- I was in a denial all this while . I felt that loosing prelims did not hurt me and its pretty normal. But it is not, I have been into preparation since 3rd year. A 2 year long journey where I have sacrificed many things, which I don't regret as it was my own choice. But somebody yesterday told me you must not be feeling sad unlike all of us because this is your first attempt whereas we all are in our second/third/fourth attempt. All my attempts to forget about my prelims came haunting me back. Feelings confronted me today and I couldn't control it much longer.

An unpredictable paper it was and I would not have worried much if it had gone bad , but I am standing somewhere close to 84-86, the thing that is haunting me is those 5 questions which I did wrong against the wishes of my gut feelings - water, pressure cooker, article 14, one history question and a eastern ghat river question. I am unable to come to terms that this is going to be the reason behind my failure in prelims.

Still I am trying, trying to shift my focus from this exam and the prelims failure and move on. Moving on seems hard at this point but this is the most I can do. 

So to everyone reading this, confront your feelings, don't be in a denial and accept your feelings with open arms. Let this flow, because if you allow feelings to quell up, it would block the veins in your body, your heart and brain would stop working and you will react or over-react to things. In these two days, I got irritated pretty easily, shouted , screamed and cried. The more I tried to forget the more it came back haunting me making my life more difficult. Welcoming it with open arms would have been much easier. 

2. To deviate my mind I watched Criminal Justice ( I know a little late) - One thing that struck me was UPSC chahe jitna bhi unpredictable ho, it actually offers you a lot to work. The situation in prison made me think why prisons are even created? Are they created for the purpose of punishment or for reforming the person? The prison where the guy aditya sharma was kept, was not reforming him but instead it created another monster from humans. The state of our prison is one of the worst in the world, we need urgent reform, for protecting and promoting the basic human rights of people. Unsanitary conditions, constant threat to life , politicisation of prisons and many more things. It just gave me one more reason to continue trying for this exam. Baaki as life would take, kuch nahin toh dhairya ki tarah NGO hi khol legen.  

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Next 9-10 days aren't going to be too productive for me. I am moving to a new city. Before that I need to meet up a few people— my newly manufactured cute nephew, my nani, and some of my school friends. So, I will be travelling. And my first week in new city too will demand a lot of time like looking for a place and all the related stuff. I am also kindda trying to chillofy after prelims thingy. But I don't want these days to be total waste. So, I should just start. 

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Day 1 (12/10/21): Target To-dos

  • Organize all the PSIR notes, handouts, everything I have
  • Ethics 2 Classes + related notes
  • Hannah Arendt (1/2)
  • Prelims Post Mortem: Economy Questions

Other Stuff:

  • Walk + Audiobook
  • Visit Dermat 

Prelims 2021 Post-Mortem: Economy

Total Questions: 14 >>>11 Correct, 3 Wrong 

Wrong Questions: UCBs, FDI, Financial Markets

I don’t think I need to change my source for the economy. Every single question can be answered with basics, Vivek Sir’s book & telegram channel. There are some chapters that I did not revise well & that cost me two questions. And the UCB one was posted in the telegram channel too. But I did not follow it well. I procrastinated on my telegram readings for too long and only in the last two months, I tried to cover the current affairs of the entire year. A saner strategy is to do the economy every single day. Also, the questions require one to understand the mechanics of how things work. So, if something is in the news, I must try to understand the economic logic behind it. There is some need for a little factual information as well but Sir’s book would cover it.

Every question I was sure of is correct. Every question I was doubtful about & did a wild guess is wrong. Do you see a lesson here?

Lessons for 2022: For economy, multiple revisions of Vivek Sir’s book, Study the telegram news everyday, go deep into the economic logic of a news or static portion when you don’t get a feel of the topic by primary reading. Don’t be reckless in ticking questions. My fall in this attempt is a lot due to over-attempting & many wild guesses. Also, did caffeine in my body make me extra reckless? 

P.S. I went on a caffeine overload as I was not able to get even an hour of sleep at night.


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Finally made peace with my Prelims 2021 debacle. Scoring in the range of 82-88 according to different answer keys. 
Like@Neyawn always says, it does not hurt when we mark the pressure cooker question wrong, but it eats up your soul when you mark a question on FDI wrong. 
I am still trying to figure out the process through my failure. People at home are disappointed, consequently, casual taunts became my best friend. 
I think this is the new normal.

Learnt a few lessons the hard way. The most important one is that this exam demands a thick skin especially if one is preparing from home.

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I’ll also start from tomorrow maybe. I’ve been away from forum to detox myself from virtual world. Failure at prelims level was also a setback for me, needed time to recover fully. I had almost left this preparation cycle. But some success results of my friends and classmates motivated me.

For next 7-8 months, only prelims specific and optional (as I changed it this time) preparation. This time, I don’t want any excuse from myself. 

Here’s how it’ll go:

 Morning- Optional (3-4) answers daily + Ember & Ember (or other optional book)

Afternoon- not expecting too much (as I feel sleepy, and other commitments). But I’ll try to read CA and Newspaper.

Evening- Revision of the previous day tasks.

Night- GS part for Prelims. Expecting to cover all subjects before SFG starts.


 I am very poor at consistency. Hope that doesn’t happen this time.

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Hello everyone,

I have been waiting for this thread thank you@nerdfighter . I am one of those silent observers who reads most of the comments get inspired and relates to what others are going through. I had my failures in 2018, 2019 and 2020 prelims itself--decided to change optional midway from psir to mathematics for 2020---strange? Yeah I know.

Failed 2020 prelims by 1.33 marks--dejected I decided to get a job. Applied for anything and everything got close in every exam and failing within the margin of 10 marks. But Out of the list means out of the list no ifs and buts.

Still waiting for 3 more results. Though I have not given 2021 prelims but have decided to give one more shot in 2022 with all I have left inside me and ofcourse getting inspiration from you people.

Currently I am preparing for UPPCS on 24th. Let's see how things roll out.

P.S. I will try not to go silent again and to those silent readers sorry for opting out this might help me😜

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Some thoughts which occured to me today : Long read, please read at your own discretion. 

1.Understanding and confronting your feelings- I was in a denial all this while . I felt that loosing prelims did not hurt me and its pretty normal. But it is not, I have been into preparation since 3rd year. A 2 year long journey where I have sacrificed many things, which I don't regret as it was my own choice. But somebody yesterday told me you must not be feeling sad unlike all of us because this is your first attempt whereas we all are in our second/third/fourth attempt. All my attempts to forget about my prelims came haunting me back. Feelings confronted me today and I couldn't control it much longer.

An unpredictable paper it was and I would not have worried much if it had gone bad , but I am standing somewhere close to 84-86, the thing that is haunting me is those 5 questions which I did wrong against the wishes of my gut feelings - water, pressure cooker, article 14, one history question and a eastern ghat river question. I am unable to come to terms that this is going to be the reason behind my failure in prelims.

Still I am trying, trying to shift my focus from this exam and the prelims failure and move on. Moving on seems hard at this point but this is the most I can do. 

So to everyone reading this, confront your feelings, don't be in a denial and accept your feelings with open arms. Let this flow, because if you allow feelings to quell up, it would block the veins in your body, your heart and brain would stop working and you will react or over-react to things. In these two days, I got irritated pretty easily, shouted , screamed and cried. The more I tried to forget the more it came back haunting me making my life more difficult. Welcoming it with open arms would have been much easier. 

2. To deviate my mind I watched Criminal Justice ( I know a little late) - One thing that struck me was UPSC chahe jitna bhi unpredictable ho, it actually offers you a lot to work. The situation in prison made me think why prisons are even created? Are they created for the purpose of punishment or for reforming the person? The prison where the guy aditya sharma was kept, was not reforming him but instead it created another monster from humans. The state of our prison is one of the worst in the world, we need urgent reform, for protecting and promoting the basic human rights of people. Unsanitary conditions, constant threat to life , politicisation of prisons and many more things. It just gave me one more reason to continue trying for this exam. Baaki as life would take, kuch nahin toh dhairya ki tarah NGO hi khol legen.  

Hurt is hurt, irrespective of the attempt. Efforts are made irrespective of attempts. Expectations to clear are set irrespective of the attempt. Please do not let anyone belittle you or your efforts because “it is only your first attempt”. Happy studying :)

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@nerdfighter and@Patootie bhai for you both-

                                                      हक़ीक़तें हैं सलामत तो ख़्वाब बहुतेरे 

                                                      उदास क्यूँ हो जो कुछ ख़्वाब राएगाँ निकले 


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@Patootie "At this point, for me, it is not even about the job for me. I want to clear the exam. It is as simple as that. It is an intensely personal struggle and it has been for at least the past 2 years. Good thing is, I finally feel that I can truly give my best again towards that goal."

I relate to that so much. Was expecting interview call at least, ended up getting the least marks so far. Confidence totally shattered. Started looking at other jobs and other exams. But eventually I realized if I run away now, I will regret it for the rest of my life. It may not be rational, and I don't know if it is right sort of motivation for becoming a good officer, but now I want to do it because I feel that I can't. When Livepool beat Barcelona 4-0 (after being defeated by 3-0 at Barcelona), Jurgen Klopp told the players before the match to either "win or fail in the most beautiful way". Now, I want to either clear the exam or at least come close. Won't run away before that.
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sbhatisaid

@Patootie "At this point, for me, it is not even about the job for me. I want to clear the exam. It is as simple as that. It is an intensely personal struggle and it has been for at least the past 2 years. Good thing is, I finally feel that I can truly give my best again towards that goal."

I relate to that so much. Was expecting interview call at least, ended up getting the least marks so far. Confidence totally shattered. Started looking at other jobs and other exams. But eventually I realized if I run away now, I will regret it for the rest of my life. It may not be rational, and I don't know if it is right sort of motivation for becoming a good officer, but now I want to do it because I feel that I can't. When Livepool beat Barcelona 4-0 (after being defeated by 3-0 at Barcelona), Jurgen Klopp told the players before the match to either "win or fail in the most beautiful way". Now, I want to either clear the exam or at least come close. Won't run away before that.

"Won't run away before that" , "I run away now, I will regret it for the rest of my life" 

Exactly my state :)


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Going to take a break from forum people, you have been very very supportive, maybe I just need time for settling this feeling that I might just not clear. I am trying and failing every time. 

I am planning to finish UPPCS, then wait for pre results, and then see how I might go about preparation. I feel so lost at this moment. Anything I am trying isn't working. 

To all, for your motivating messages I am very very grateful, I will be back but after conquering my emotions, being little more strong, focused and clear about how I would like to move forward. 

All the very best everyone.


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“Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things” — Stephen king (basically I remember this quote due to dipin sir’s CA classes :P 

 So even after getting somewhere around 80-85 from various keys, I just hoped that “the cutoff might fall this low, or maybe the coaching keys have many incorrect answers and most honestly put, I hoped to clear prelims.” 

But the hopes were completely shattered :P and with that came all the self pity, labelling myself as a “FAILURE” and considering everyone/everything to be the reason for my failure. 

Haven’t been able to properly study since the 10th October. For these 20days, went through various success stories, topper talks(though I had thought of not watching any), analysed each and every mistake in the prelims paper, asked anonymous people in this community for help(wish I had kept an anonymous name as well xD, but was too heartbroken to even think of changing my name then xD), spent A LOT OF TIME in solitude thinking, and most importantly, CRIED to let everything out. 

Now post all this, realised that UPSC and life in general is about “survival of the fittest”, we need to MOVE ON because the ultimate goal in life is LIFE ITSELF. I don’t even know why I am writing all this(probably because when I was feeling extremely low, had read somebody’s text here and obviously@Neyawn posts that helped me A LOT). So, maybe this might help someone feeling the same. 

Hence, to buckle up and bounce back, cleaned my entire room, cooked typical Bihari comfort food (dal, chawal, chokha), listed down all my distractions(even this page xD, wanted to post for the last time), wrote myself a letter with all the ambitious targets that I’d like to achieve and promised myself to give my best in the last attempt I wish to give(post 2022, which shall be my 2nd attempt technically, won’t be giving further full fledged attempts, would go back to the corporate sector) and most importantly told myself that I CAN AND I WILL be able to it. Because it is all about “ordinary people doing extraordinary things”. 

Pre and post clearing this exam, I feel, the person remains exactly the same. It is just that society sees you in a different way. And I feel for the majority of us, UPSC is just the “psychological and self actualisation needs” in Maslow’s need hierarchy theory. All of us are already capable enough to fulfil our basic needs(and Jeevan ismei bhi ache se guzar sakti hai) 

According to Herbert baker(socio optional peeps, hi5 :P) labelling theory, “you start behaving the way you/society labels you”. So do not let anybody/yourself put those demeaning and cruel labels. Let us just GIVE OUR BEST! 

Ending with 2 of my favourite quotes and a picture of what my day looked like today(idk where the picture got inserted, but you got the feeling, right> 

“Human potential is the only limitless resource we have in this world” — Carly fiorina 

“Consistency of effort over the long run, is, EVERYTHING” — Angela Duckworth (book, “GRIT” — an AMAZING book, incase you’d get time to read ) 


HAPPY DIWALI! (Make a promise to yourself to not spend the next Diwali doing academic studies? 😛) 


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Hello everyone! Back here after all the exams and stuff in life. Now I just have UPSC . Hoping for a good day!

1. CA classes - 3 classes 

2. IR - Notes Cover as much as you can 

3. GS 3 - Topics - atleast 2. 

Have a great day guys! Lets do this :)

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P.S. Obligatory New Beginnings Pep Talk


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