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Mains 2021 Post result Thread: What went wrong and way forward.

Still numb and can't focus on anything. This was my first mains in my second attempt. I was getting good marks and good ranks in the mocks that I gave for GS and Essays. Optional was also good, though didn't give much mocks for it.  This feeling of failure is affecting almost all aspect of my life- my relationships with my family members, my own mental equilibrium is getting worse. Getting angry on petty issues. Worried about what went wrong with me more than what went wrong in mains. A quick background- a topper throughout my life, from school days, to coaching, to college. Cleared almost all exams, I sat for in a go. From a few years, I lost that confidence. Whenever I look back, I doubt if I am the same who was a few years ago. I used to be the most cheerful guy among my friends. Now, everything looks gloomy. Don't even know whom to talk to, left every social media for this exam. A deep sense of loneliness is spiraling me into intense mood swings.

Was trying to explore meditation to see if it can be helpful. But looks like every renowned sources are paid, except Vipassana which takes time instead of money. I would be very grateful for any help with techniques to cope up with this sense of dejection and loneliness. Sorry to intrude into a otherwise healthy thread discussing what went wrong with words resonating negativity and hopelessness.

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Thanks, this is very reassuring. Vipassana attracted me too since my college days. I would try searching the slots, and would find a suitable time to do it. Your emphasis on it, makes me even more inclined to pursue it soon. I had been reluctant precisely because it takes 10 days, but it seems that would be worth it. Would also see the other techniques suggested here and some to my inbox.

Thanks @GaryVee, for your kind words. These transient emotions would certainly fade away with friends like you over here at Forum :) I would see the guided meditation you suggested.

Hello, @LuckyKat, thanks for your suggestion regarding Tushita. It looks great. Looks like buddhism holds the key for me as well as for the world now, to set free :p


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