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@Akshay_Hegade Hi Akshay!
A couple of years back, I was in a similar position like you. I can only imagine how shattering you must be feeling right now. Putting 5-6 years of your life, at the peak of youth, chasing a dream that ends up merely being a mirage, is gut wrenching. Nobody can understand this feeling. You see your friends moving ahead in their lives, you see the world carrying forward as if nothing has changed, and you see all those things that could have been yours.
Let me tell you brother, there is a big wide world outside of the UPSC preparation world. There are tons of people, doing crazy good for the world. Outcome of UPSC journey is not the end of the world. Let me repeat, it is not the end of the world. Deep down you most probably know this am sure. But just consider it a gentle reminder from someone who was in the same phase as you couple of years back and can say things with the confidence of hindsight.
I don't know you personally or your family background or your motivation to prepare for this exam. But one thing I can take from your journey is that you are a fighter. Putting in sustained efforts for a long period of 5-6 years for your dream is a mark of a fighter. It shows perseverance, grit, and focus. I understand that the desired goal has not been achieved and it seems like all these years have all been in vain. But that's okay. I won't romanticize the preparation struggle, but I know that you will come out of this stronger.
If you have prepared with honesty, giving in the required hours, reading mandatory books, writing tests, then no matter what the outcome, you should not feel that you have betrayed your parents. Result was never in your hands. Hardwork was. And you did that. Writing three mains is testament to that. Give it time. Don't let this exam crush your spirits. Life is much bigger than this. You have almost 3/4th of your life ahead of you, don't let this one result stop you from doing all the great things that you can.
Wishing you all the best brother!
PS: I left UPSC prep three years back after three attempts. Working in a corporate job now.
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out with psir .5th attempt,3rd mains .Feel i betrayed my parents hard work,money and hope
Hi Akshay!
A couple of years back, I was in a similar position like you. I can only imagine how shattering you must be feeling right now. Putting 5-6 years of your life, at the peak of youth, chasing a dream that ends up merely being a mirage, is gut wrenching. Nobody can understand this feeling. You see your friends moving ahead in their lives, you see the world carrying forward as if nothing has changed, and you see all those things that could have been yours.
Let me tell you brother, there is a big wide world outside of the UPSC preparation world. There are tons of people, doing crazy good for the world. Outcome of UPSC journey is not the end of the world. Let me repeat, it is not the end of the world. Deep down you most probably know this am sure. But just consider it a gentle reminder from someone who was in the same phase as you couple of years back and can say things with the confidence of hindsight.
I don't know you personally or your family background or your motivation to prepare for this exam. But one thing I can take from your journey is that you are a fighter. Putting in sustained efforts for a long period of 5-6 years for your dream is a mark of a fighter. It shows perseverance, grit, and focus. I understand that the desired goal has not been achieved and it seems like all these years have all been in vain. But that's okay. I won't romanticize the preparation struggle, but I know that you will come out of this stronger.
If you have prepared with honesty, giving in the required hours, reading mandatory books, writing tests, then no matter what the outcome, you should not feel that you have betrayed your parents. Result was never in your hands. Hardwork was. And you did that. Writing three mains is testament to that. Give it time. Don't let this exam crush your spirits. Life is much bigger than this. You have almost 3/4th of your life ahead of you, don't let this one result stop you from doing all the great things that you can.
Wishing you all the best brother!
PS: I left UPSC prep three years back after three attempts. Working in a corporate job now.
