Please save me from depression
I have given 3 attempts.2021,22 n 23.
Age 27.
2021 pre marks- gs 1- 55 ,csat 70
2022 marks- gs 1- 77,csat -69.
Went to Delhi after this for 6-7 months n joined mgp n all.
2023- gs1- 80-90 from coaching keys.
Csat- 60-70 from coaching keys.
Failed 3 pre.
After pre result I decided that I will give bihar pcs this time(pre on 30th September) and eventually will be back to cse.
Immediately after result i encountered with malaria.i am very weak after that physically..not able to even sit in library for long.
Lost all my self confidence..m searching videos like can I clear bpsc prelims in 2-2.5 months
I have a long relationship.she is supporting...but what if I lose her like Sandeep bhaiya lost kusum.
My parents are getting older..they support me but 27 ke age me pen ke paise lene me Rona aa jata.
I am not at all in zone of studying.
I don't have professional degree.
I want to consult physiologist..but can't afford.
Except suicide I am getting all bad thoughts.
I met a wonderful student yesterday. Depression is much around us. This man had cleared the exam , rang the success bell at forumias last year and I was expecting him to be happy. When I asked how did you feel after getting a rank, he said Sir "numb". Felt nothing. In fact I just came to say Thank you. So I may have even sounded rude when folks asked me to ring the bell.
I said - go and take a break. Goto FC. Enjoy for a year and come back to the exam if you feel like. He said Sir, I have cleared prelims last year interview in 4-5 days. I have plenty of time this year. Want to make it count. :-(
Why is GenZ more depressed? What do you think?
I do not know the medical science reasons behind clinical depression. But general thngs that can affect mood is
- too much screen time
- lack of phsyical contact with nature such as trees, soil, grass etc
- lack of meaninhful realtionships ( people meeting, but looking at the mobile )
- general meeting of basic needs, which sometimes allows us to focus on the invisible aspects of health such a mental health, which would be ignored if there was fight for basic needs.
- high amount of pressure to deliver in day to day life
P.S. I am not undermining the problem. I met another candidate whom I gifted a book. Its a life transforming one. At least it has been for the 10 odd people i gifted it to.
I felt he would not read the book. Its a small and easy read.
He is also a selected student, but working for rank improvement and was a little low
And this happens today!
I am no knight. Do not call me Sir
superman159,
N number of judge karne wali books are coming to my mind
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