Please save me from depression

Najdorf

| 1 year(s) ago

I have given 3 attempts.2021,22 n 23.

Age 27.

2021 pre marks- gs 1- 55 ,csat 70

2022 marks- gs 1- 77,csat -69.

Went to Delhi after this for 6-7 months n joined mgp n all.

2023- gs1- 80-90 from coaching keys.

Csat- 60-70 from coaching keys.

Failed 3 pre.

After pre result I decided that I will give bihar pcs this time(pre on 30th September) and eventually will be back to cse.

Immediately after result i encountered with malaria.i am very weak after that physically..not able to even sit in library for long.

Lost all my self confidence..m searching videos like can I clear bpsc prelims in 2-2.5 months

I have a long relationship.she is supporting...but what if I lose her like Sandeep bhaiya lost kusum.

My parents are getting older..they support me but 27 ke age me pen ke paise lene me Rona aa jata.

I am not at all in zone of studying.

I don't have professional degree.

I want to consult physiologist..but can't afford.

Except suicide I am getting all bad thoughts.

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27 comments

Neyawn .

commented 5 month(s) ago

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Neyawnsaid
I met a wonderful student yesterday. Depression is much around us. This man had cleared the exam , rang the success bell at forumias last year and I was expecting him to be happy. When I asked how did you feel after getting a rank, he said Sir "numb". Felt nothing. In fact I just came to say Thank you. So I may have even sounded rude when folks asked me to ring the bell.
I said - go and take a break. Goto FC. Enjoy for a year and come back to the exam if you feel like. He said Sir, I have cleared prelims last year interview in 4-5 days. I have plenty of time this year. Want to make it count. :-(
Why is GenZ more depressed? What do you think?

I do not know the medical science reasons behind clinical depression. But general thngs that can affect mood is

too much screen time
lack of phsyical contact with nature such as trees, soil, grass etc
lack of meaninhful realtionships ( people meeting, but looking at the mobile )
general meeting of basic needs, which sometimes allows us to focus on the invisible aspects of health such a mental health, which would be ignored if there was fight for basic needs.
high amount of pressure to deliver in day to day life

P.S. I am not undermining the problem. I met another candidate whom I gifted a book. Its a life transforming one. At least it has been for the 10 odd people i gifted it to.

I felt he would not read the book. Its a small and easy read.

He is also a selected student, but working for rank improvement and was a little low

And this happens today!