I have been a silent member of forum since 2017. started giving exam from 2017. couldn`t clear mains in 2017 and 2018. took a year gap and and gave prelims 2020. according to various coaching key was scoring around 100, so started mains preparation but couldn`t find my name in the pdf. when the marks released a few days back it was 80.27 according to upsc. I have given this years prelims also but havent checked any answer key. will wait for official result. this huge marks variation between upsc and coaching answer key has been a great shock to me. I am sharing my journey here to tell all of you something. After my failure in 2018, my mother forced me to sit for other exams. The results of those exams have come out a few months back . Right now I have been selected in 3 state govt jobs. last year after prelims failure I was still unemployed, was at the lowest of may confidence, wanted to commit the worst. but this year I am feeling much more happy and not at all affected by prelims outcome. selection in other jobs have literally saved my life. So I would like to tell all of you who are preparing without a job, don`t make UPSC your whole existence. Take a step back and look for other jobs. I am 28 years old and very well know the helplessness we feel after every failure. UPSC is unpredictable at each stage. clearing prelims will not guarantee success at subsequent stages. So I would advise everyone to prepare along with jobs. In these uncertain times, shed your ego and start giving other exams also. clearing other exams also need preparation, competition is nowhere easy. but it takes less than half the time we devote to clearing upsc. Failure in UPSC doesn`t make us losers, clearing it will not make us DEMI GODS. stop worshipping this exam. life is too precious for wasting away like this year after years. your parents wouldn`t love you less just beacause you haven`t become IAS. and your parents matter most not anyone else. so those who feel are not going to clear prelims , right away start preparing for other exams. results are anyway going to be out in and around 20 days. FYI SBI PO notification is out. those who are eligible go for it. Last year after prelims debacle I sat for it and reached till interview stage with very little preparation. I am from humanities background , so engineering/ science graduates are in much more better position than me to clear bank exams. results of other exams take time to come out, specially result of state pcs exams as you can see from my experience. the result of my 2018 exams have come out in mid 2021 only. so don`t prolong your dependence on parents. start earning as soon as possible. Whether I clear prelims or not, my UPSC journey of 5 years ends here. I have tried my best and have no regrets. ALL THE BEST EVERYONE
