@gargim Hi I am akankshaI am writing cohort 6 & anthro test series in sunya, although I haven't written mains , but I am a serious candidate & am looking for a serious candidate as well
Anthro test series in sunya 🙄 ye first time suna
Sir. Any other source you referred to for economics?
Sir ,Filhaal to itna hi kaafi hai 😂, Aap btaiye aapne kse kiya tha
Really 😲
@Rashmirathi acting so inncoent, steph mentioned you by name in his vdo.
🤔🤔
this may come as a little absurd question, but all my friends who've cleared prelims in the past, what has been the game changer for you? or what are some non-negotiables?@TomiokaGiyu @Tata @DM and everyone else.. I really need a perspective, consecutive failures at pre have been pretty hard
Non -negotiables -
1.Don’t run to much after xyz current affairs compilations (most of them claim that almost all questions were directly asked from them 😂) instead focus on static.If you don’t have hold over it you are not gonna make it
2.Stick to one source per subject,revise it multiple times (2,3 times doesn’t count as revision)
3. You must not get easy questions or questions directly asked from standard sources wrong .As it’s not the absurd questions or out of the questions but the direct questions which ensures if one is going to clear or not
4 .PYQS - not only try to solve them but make them your friends as only they will show you the right directions as what is important what’s not ,where you should dedicate more time ,where you should not ,how upsc plays with mind of aspirants .Although probability of asking questions directly from pyqs maye be 2-3 but themes get repeated,so does many options.
5.Solve test as they will be the one to show you where you stand ,what’s going wrong and what needs to be done .So they are like practice drills before final battle,where you practice every possible scenario so that you don’t get surprised on final day .Don’t focus on scores but on the process and progress with every test ( Numbers mostly lies as data in upsc questions)
5. You should be at your near prelims not before not after
6. Despite being studying after everything and doing everything,always be open to surprises so that you don’t get anxious in exam hall and be calm,composed and confident that you gonna fight till last question.
7 . Don’t neglect csat at any cost
Game changer -
1 . Practice ,practice,practice and practice.As we can go on revising and revising ,knowing almost everything but if we cant apply it there is no use of that knowledge
2. In mocks put yourself under pressure like if its full length try to finish it in 1.5 hr or half length-45 mins ( this is what i do )
3.Knowledge can be transferred but not the wisdom,that can only be gained through experiences so first of all be truthful to yourself accept your shortcomings and work upon them
Above learnings or strategy’s are what i have learned from my teachers@Neyawn ,special thanks and mention to @Sherkhan1428 for sharing this few years ago and many of my other friends
this may come as a little absurd question, but all my friends who've cleared prelims in the past, what has been the game changer for you? or what are some non-negotiables?@TomiokaGiyu @Tata @DM and everyone else.. I really need a perspective, consecutive failures at pre have been pretty hard
Non -negotiables -
1.Don’t run to much after xyz current affairs compilations (most of them claim that almost all questions were directly asked from them 😂) instead focus on static.If you don’t have hold over it you are not gonna make it
2.Stick to one source per subject,revise it multiple times (2,3 times doesn’t count as revision)
3. You must not get easy questions or questions directly asked from standard sources wrong .As it’s not the absurd questions or out of the questions but the direct questions which ensures if one is going to clear or not
4 .PYQS - not only try to solve them but make them your friends as only they will show you the right directions as what is important what’s not ,where you should dedicate more time ,where you should not ,how upsc plays with mind of aspirants .Although probability of asking questions directly from pyqs maye be 2-3 but themes get repeated,so does many options.
5.Solve test as they will be the one to show you where you stand ,what’s going wrong and what needs to be done .So they are like practice drills before final battle,where you practice every possible scenario so that you don’t get surprised on final day .Don’t focus on scores but on the process and progress with every test ( Numbers mostly lies as data in upsc questions)
5. You should be at your near prelims not before not after
6. Despite being studying after everything and doing everything,always be open to surprises so that you don’t get anxious in exam hall and be calm,composed and confident that you gonna fight till last question.
7 . Don’t neglect csat at any cost
Game changer -
1 . Practice ,practice,practice and practice.As we can go on revising and revising ,knowing almost everything but if we cant apply it there is no use of that knowledge
2. In mocks put yourself under pressure like if its full length try to finish it in 1.5 hr or half length-45 mins ( this is what i do )
3.Knowledge can be transferred but not the wisdom,that can only be gained through experiences so first of all be truthful to yourself accept your shortcomings and work upon them
Above learnings or strategy’s are what i have learned from my teachers@Neyawn ,special thanks and mention to @Sherkhan1428 for sharing this few years ago and many of my other friends
this is so extensive and super objective at the same time, will definitely use this advice for keeping myself in the right direction, btw how did you go about preparing current affairs? and also which book did you refer for PYQs?
For current affairs i was regular with newspaper (also referred to two of famous sources but was not of any use ) , for pyqs used disha publication(for 1995 to 2019) ,upsc simplified by IFS Sourav kumar
this may come as a little absurd question, but all my friends who've cleared prelims in the past, what has been the game changer for you? or what are some non-negotiables?@TomiokaGiyu @Tata @DM and everyone else.. I really need a perspective, consecutive failures at pre have been pretty hard
Non -negotiables -
1.Don’t run to much after xyz current affairs compilations (most of them claim that almost all questions were directly asked from them 😂) instead focus on static.If you don’t have hold over it you are not gonna make it
2.Stick to one source per subject,revise it multiple times (2,3 times doesn’t count as revision)
3. You must not get easy questions or questions directly asked from standard sources wrong .As it’s not the absurd questions or out of the questions but the direct questions which ensures if one is going to clear or not
4 .PYQS - not only try to solve them but make them your friends as only they will show you the right directions as what is important what’s not ,where you should dedicate more time ,where you should not ,how upsc plays with mind of aspirants .Although probability of asking questions directly from pyqs maye be 2-3 but themes get repeated,so does many options.
5.Solve test as they will be the one to show you where you stand ,what’s going wrong and what needs to be done .So they are like practice drills before final battle,where you practice every possible scenario so that you don’t get surprised on final day .Don’t focus on scores but on the process and progress with every test ( Numbers mostly lies as data in upsc questions)
5. You should be at your near prelims not before not after
6. Despite being studying after everything and doing everything,always be open to surprises so that you don’t get anxious in exam hall and be calm,composed and confident that you gonna fight till last question.
7 . Don’t neglect csat at any cost
Game changer -
1 . Practice ,practice,practice and practice.As we can go on revising and revising ,knowing almost everything but if we cant apply it there is no use of that knowledge
2. In mocks put yourself under pressure like if its full length try to finish it in 1.5 hr or half length-45 mins ( this is what i do )
3.Knowledge can be transferred but not the wisdom,that can only be gained through experiences so first of all be truthful to yourself accept your shortcomings and work upon them
Above learnings or strategy’s are what i have learned from my teachers@Neyawn ,special thanks and mention to @Sherkhan1428 for sharing this few years ago and many of my other friends
this is so extensive and super objective at the same time, will definitely use this advice for keeping myself in the right direction, btw how did you go about preparing current affairs? and also which book did you refer for PYQs?
For current affairs i was regular with newspaper (also referred to two of famous sources but was not of any use ) , for pyqs used disha publication(for 1995 to 2019) ,upsc simplified by IFS Sourav kumar
I've seen IFS sourav kumar's book sample and it looked promising, which when would you suggest disha or sourav kumar?
Sourav kumar
Is it feasible to prepare for mains in the time post prelims?
my optional will be done in a week. want to give more time to prelims for the fear of it.
kindly advice.@Neyawn @Rashmirathi
It depends on your preparation and priorities
Only three people active here 😢😢I'm equally surprised, with forum gaining popularity, the community seems to be getting more inactive.. it's the upsc contemporary of Karakoram anomaly
Others might be just reading your daily schedules and getting inputs from that 😅
As long as it is helping others, i don't see a problem :)
“zindagi yun hui basar tanha,
qafila saath aur safar tanha.”
Only three people active here 😢😢I'm equally surprised, with forum gaining popularity, the community seems to be getting more inactive.. it's the upsc contemporary of Karakoram anomaly
Others might be just reading your daily schedules and getting inputs from that 😅
As long as it is helping others, i don't see a problem :)
“zindagi yun hui basar tanha, qafila saath aur safar tanha.”
aapne toh apni 'royal entry' se puri thread mein jaan bhardi sirrr!
Bs purani yaadein taza karne aa jaate hai
Only three people active here 😢😢I'm equally surprised, with forum gaining popularity, the community seems to be getting more inactive.. it's the upsc contemporary of Karakoram anomaly
Others might be just reading your daily schedules and getting inputs from that 😅
As long as it is helping others, i don't see a problem :)
“zindagi yun hui basar tanha, qafila saath aur safar tanha.”
aapne toh apni 'royal entry' se puri thread mein jaan bhardi sirrr!
Bs purani yaadein taza karne aa jaate hai
Arrey ab nayi yaadein banane ka time hai aapka :)
All the best for the interview, make it big!
Thanks a lot 🙏🏻
This one for all great people here Koi hai yaha pr jiske saath open mock mein tragedy hogyi ho? Got into the sfg group despite that the ghost of gs has come back to haunt me :(@Rashmirathi can you please give some insights on this, needed some reassurance :/
Marks doesn’t matter that much , Go for test analysis and work upon your mistakes as it’s only December.Make sure that you don’t repeat this in April
At the behest of the Almighty! Though we are trying our level best to change the course of it. How about you? How was your interview? How could you not know that Mirza Asadullah Beg Khan was the court poet of 'Zafar', who eventually awarded him with various titles such as 'Dabir-ul-Mulk', 'Najm-ud-daula', 'Mirza Nosha'!
क्या सबब तू जो बिगड़ता है 'ज़फ़र' से हर बार
ख़ू तिरी हूर-शमाइल कभी ऐसी तो न थी..
See you back at the SFG, comrade! Best wishes!
“At the end of the day, the only thing that you truly can control is where you place your attention and where you place your effort” and if you are placing both of them in right direction you are on right track , you only just need patience and endurance to win this race , don’t give up till the last .
I am also doing good just taking some rest and also i knew about Ibrahim zauk he was the teacher and court poet of Bhadur shah zafar and Ghalib and zauk were contemporary, also there rivalry was very famous .Although at last Ghalib overpowered zauk but both were outstanding in there own way
Zauk
'ज़ौक़' जो मदरसे के बिगड़े हुए हैं मुल्ला
उनको मय-ख़ाने में ले आओ सँवर जाएँगे
At the behest of the Almighty! Though we are trying our level best to change the course of it. How about you? How was your interview? How could you not know that Mirza Asadullah Beg Khan was the court poet of 'Zafar', who eventually awarded him with various titles such as 'Dabir-ul-Mulk', 'Najm-ud-daula', 'Mirza Nosha'!
क्या सबब तू जो बिगड़ता है 'ज़फ़र' से हर बार
ख़ू तिरी हूर-शमाइल कभी ऐसी तो न थी..
See you back at the SFG, comrade! Best wishes!
“At the end of the day, the only thing that you truly can control is where you place your attention and where you place your effort” and if you are placing both of them in right direction you are on right track , you only just need patience and endurance to win this race , don’t give up till the last .
I am also doing good just taking some rest and also i knew about Ibrahim zauk he was the teacher and court poet of Bhadur shah zafar and Ghalib and zauk were contemporary, also there rivalry was very famous .Although at last Ghalib overpowered zauk but both were outstanding in there own way
Zauk
'ज़ौक़' जो मदरसे के बिगड़े हुए हैं मुल्ला
उनको मय-ख़ाने में ले आओ सँवर जाएँगे
Kahan se le aate ho itna gyan !-!
Kahan hai gyan abhi to khud agyaani hai
Keep going
Very beautiful lines from three of us movie-
Ek tamasha shor ka ,kal fir se jhela jaayega,
Ek pathar aas ka ,saans se thela jaayega ,
Kal to tabhi aayega ,jab aaj khela jaayega ,
Ab nikal kar raah pe ,hum aa chuke hai to suno ,
Jaayenge hum us nagar,jis tak me thela jaayega ,
Kal to tabhi aayega ,jab aaj khela jaayega ,
Laakh moti jeb me tu rakh le chaahe to ,
Aakhir to muuthi me ek dhela jaayega ,
Kal to tabhi aayega ,jab aaj khela jaayega
You all will do great 😊 Have faith on yourself
I am unable to even look at laxmikant.Just unable to.
This is my 4th prelims.
2021- 55 marks.(6-7 polity questions wrong)
2022- 76 marks (3 wrong)
2023- 80-85 marks.. from coaching keys.(2 wrong..charter act and schedule area)
But still I am not at all able to read polity..more importantly unable to see laxmikant.
Kya Kiya jaye?
If you are not able to go through laxmikant you can follow any of these strategies-
1. Can watch videos on youtube (of specific topics)
2.Can solve tests sectional and full lengths of polity it will help you to go through all the important topics
3. Can follow any book which gives summary of laxmikant ( i think forum has released a red book on this)
I am not a expert but these are my observations
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How’s your preparation going on and sfg ??
Heyyy, how have you been?
Yaar sfg + csat + pyq + mapping + FLT + Revision + other coaching sectional + CA class, bhot overwhelmed, your inputs needed! Kaise manage krein yeh sab, considering I've 2-3 attempts ka experience what would do you suggest? So sorry I bombarded you with these questions xp
Hi
1.Stick to sfg level 1&2 fir sectional avoid other coaching institutions test ( as doing one thing but doing it throughly and religiously matters)
2.For csat-do it when you get bored of studying gs ( it depends on how you fare in it ,if you are not good at it do it properly)
3.For pyqs don’t give dedicated time -do it in your free time ,don’t only try to solve them do there through analysis as it will help you to understand how upsc thinks and ask questions
4.FLTs - first sort out how many you will give and then fix the interval at which you will be doing it like after ever 3,4,5 day as per your strategy
5.CA classes do them offline and revise one time after going to room and one time coming to next class
6.Same goes with revision can give one day a week to revise all the test you did in that week
Hope it helps (these are my learnings and observations so take it with pinch of salt )
Keep going as said -
वह पथ क्या पथिक कुशलता क्या..
जिस पथ में बिखरें शूल न हों
नाविक की धैर्य-कुशलता क्या…
जब धाराएँ प्रतिकूल न हों ।
As our best comes after facing the unfavourable circumstances as they help us to get out of our comfort zone
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SFG Test 1 analysis
SFG Test 2 prep
Geography PYQ
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Economy 20 pages
CA class
How’s your preparation going on and sfg ??
Heyyy, how have you been?
Yaar sfg + csat + pyq + mapping + FLT + Revision + other coaching sectional + CA class, bhot overwhelmed, your inputs needed! Kaise manage krein yeh sab, considering I've 2-3 attempts ka experience what would do you suggest? So sorry I bombarded you with these questions xp
Hi
1.Stick to sfg level 1&2 fir sectional avoid other coaching institutions test ( as doing one thing but doing it throughly and religiously matters)
2.For csat-do it when you get bored of studying gs ( it depends on how you fare in it ,if you are not good at it do it properly)
3.For pyqs don’t give dedicated time -do it in your free time ,don’t only try to solve them do there through analysis as it will help you to understand how upsc thinks and ask questions
4.FLTs - first sort out how many you will give and then fix the interval at which you will be doing it like after ever 3,4,5 day as per your strategy
5.CA classes do them offline and revise one time after going to room and one time coming to next class
6.Same goes with revision can give one day a week to revise all the test you did in that week
Hope it helps (these are my learnings and observations so take it with pinch of salt )
Keep going as said -
वह पथ क्या पथिक कुशलता क्या..
जिस पथ में बिखरें शूल न हों
नाविक की धैर्य-कुशलता क्या…
जब धाराएँ प्रतिकूल न हों ।
As our best comes after facing the unfavourable circumstances as they help us to get out of our comfort zone
wow, i feel so enlightened, i'll chart a proper plan to incorporate these.. much needed words of wisdom and motivation _/\_
all the best for your results!!
Thanks ☺️ and best of luck
@Rashmirathi what you doing for csat?
Will be solving pyqs and some flts
@Rashmirathi okayy Thankyou!
Hi
This is what i will be doing ,not recommending to you 😊 if you are not good at csat plz do watch videos and anything you can do ( it’s becoming tougher and tougher so plz be prepared,otherwise wasting one attempt because of csat hurts a lot )
@Rashmirathi I'm not good at CSAT and already lost my 2 attempts bec of CSAT that's why asking, what best works for CSAT....now doing pyqs and some you tube sessions for Quant..
Replied in your dm 🙏🏻
@lovee712 I typed a long msg and sent that day only 😂😂 ab I don’t know if there is any glitch with the dm’s
Hello, everyone! Hope you are doing well.
Struggling to build momentum these days and decided to get back to this thread for a while.
Targets for 16/03/2024 :
- Newspaper
- Work on geography mapping and revise NCERTs
- Analyse SFG mistakes of geo
- Log at least 8 hours (with decent focus study) on YPT today
Welcome back glad to see you back after so long
Hello, everyone! Hope you are doing well.
Struggling to build momentum these days and decided to get back to this thread for a while.
Targets for 16/03/2024 :
- Newspaper
- Work on geography mapping and revise NCERTs
- Analyse SFG mistakes of geo
- Log at least 8 hours (with decent focus study) on YPT today
Welcome back glad to see you back after so long
Thanks for the warm welcome! Glad to see you too. Just got a bit overwhelmed with the whole exam cycle but was missing coming here. So, eventually had to come back :)
Keep going 🙌
Update: 14.09.24
Scored quite above average in Maths. Made really silly mistakes in formulas and lost almost 20 marks in both the papers. Lack of formula revision is the culprit.
Reasonably confident in Essay, Opt and GS4.
What I improved this year?
- Studied with absolute discipline with an average of 12 hrs+
- My mock status: Essay- 4, GS1-2, GS2- 2, GS3- 2, GS4- 3, Opt- 4.
- I think I could have given more mocks for Opt but I tried my level best to balance between GS and Maths.
- Solved PYQs diligently.
- Improved my sleep schedule
- Did mock analysis and strategized per paper.
Certain shortcomings (with honesty):
- I wasn't mains ready before Abhyaas. It was one of my targets but I couldn't as I was preoccupied with Maths opt.
- I couldn't give simulators this time around because I had to remedy my mistakes I had identified in Abhyaas and ofcourse, the revision part.
- Couldn't do modern algebra everyday as planned.
With just 6 days left for Mains, if my future self looks back to this day and wonders if I did my best during prep. My reply is "Yes, I did". I have pulled off 15 hrs study sessions as well. Finished 3 answer writing notebooks for GS and finished almost 4 large notebooks for Maths. Analysed PYQs and mocks diligently for GS and Opt.
So today when I look back to the broken person in Jan 2024, I can't believe I got through that phase. The question of hoga-nahi-hoga is something I will leave to the future because I am happy I could make it this far. Picking myself up after Mains 2023 rejection was not easy but still somehow I pushed through all of this one day at a time. At this stage, my fear of rejection is gone. [This is my 7th year of prep (I started at 19 by self-prep) so the thought of "what if I get selected" and external validation of someone telling me that I will get selected is long gone].
So my final message to people attempting Mains 2024 and my future self is "Itne durr tak aa gaye ho toh aage bhi hojayega.. bass ladte rehena hai". All the best.
‘राह पकड़ तू एक चला चल,
पा जाएगा मधुशाला’
“External validation of someone telling me that I will get selected is long gone “ reminded me of these lines by Rashtrakavi Ramdhari Singh Dinkar ji
शून्य और दीवार, दोनों एक हैं
आकार और निराकार, दोनों एक हैं,
जिस दिन खोज शांत होगी,
तुम आप-से-आप यह जानोगे,
कि खोज पाने की नहीं,
खोने की थी।
यानी तुम सचमुच में जो हो
वही होने की थी।
Best of luck 🤞🏻
Hii all,
Need some suggestions from the community....I have written mains this year it was my 2nd attempt and first mains , after every paper in mains I felt I have not done enough justice to it and I know there are many loopholes in my answer writing....so what shall I do next? Join mgp again or focus on pyq brainstorming and enriching my notes ...just muddled up in confusion where to start from again for mains prep. Any advice from Seniors who have gone through this phase would be a huge help🙏🙏
@Neyawn @Steph_Curry @Ganesh_Gaitonde @tedmosby @Rashmirathi
First of all take a break ,enjoy somedays away from books to rejuvenate yourself as your body and soul deserves this . Then go ahed with pyq brainstorming
Hii all,
Need some suggestions from the community....I have written mains this year it was my 2nd attempt and first mains , after every paper in mains I felt I have not done enough justice to it and I know there are many loopholes in my answer writing....so what shall I do next? Join mgp again or focus on pyq brainstorming and enriching my notes ...just muddled up in confusion where to start from again for mains prep. Any advice from Seniors who have gone through this phase would be a huge help🙏🙏
@Neyawn @Steph_Curry @Ganesh_Gaitonde @tedmosby @Rashmirathi
First of all take a break ,enjoy somedays away from books to rejuvenate yourself as your body and soul deserves this . Then go ahed with pyq brainstorming
Soul se likhe ho kya paper?
Bilkul antaratama se
Guys in a dilemma, i gave upsc mains 2024, i got a job offer that I want to take up, starting this month 10th.
But UPSC interview preparation also need to be done.
In a dilemma to accept offer or not.
two things i'm sure is
1. I will take 1 full month leave before my interview date
2. can give 5hours per day for interview preparation starting from november 1st week
should i take up the offer, will it be problematic ?
experienced people like@tedmosby @Neyawn @Rashmirathi @DM can kindly help.
also please suggest some courses/ newspaper analysis that we can follow for interview prep.
im thinking to take forum current affairs course only again, although it seems little costly this time :)
PS: without loss of generality, reasonable and hopeful assumptions are made
Bhai karlo join
Guys in a dilemma, i gave upsc mains 2024, i got a job offer that I want to take up, starting this month 10th.
But UPSC interview preparation also need to be done.
In a dilemma to accept offer or not.
two things i'm sure is
1. I will take 1 full month leave before my interview date
2. can give 5hours per day for interview preparation starting from november 1st week
should i take up the offer, will it be problematic ?
experienced people like@tedmosby @Neyawn @Rashmirathi @DM can kindly help.
also please suggest some courses/ newspaper analysis that we can follow for interview prep.
im thinking to take forum current affairs course only again, although it seems little costly this time :)
PS: without loss of generality, reasonable and hopeful assumptions are made
Bhai job karlo join
Hii all,
Need some suggestions from the community....I have written mains this year it was my 2nd attempt and first mains , after every paper in mains I felt I have not done enough justice to it and I know there are many loopholes in my answer writing....so what shall I do next? Join mgp again or focus on pyq brainstorming and enriching my notes ...just muddled up in confusion where to start from again for mains prep. Any advice from Seniors who have gone through this phase would be a huge help🙏🙏
@Neyawn @Steph_Curry @Ganesh_Gaitonde @tedmosby @Rashmirathi
First of all take a break ,enjoy somedays away from books to rejuvenate yourself as your body and soul deserves this . Then go ahed with pyq brainstorming
You always give such beautiful advices! 🙇🏻
I think Forum should consider hiring him....he can become the next big thing in upsc industry.
Mai upsc industry me big thing bnne nhi aaya bhai 😂😂
Good evening everyone.
Wasnt feeling so well.
Was going through some old pics and found this.
In an aspirants room. Had clicked it back then. Like 5 years.
Made my day.
To all those going through tough times.
Sharing.
And happy Diwali!
This is extremely relatable! On the occasion of Diwali, I would like to share my journey in this context-
As a 19 yr old "kid", I used to get excited to study more because of this dream I had once seen. I remember writing answers in the freezing winters of Dehradun. I clearly remember writing one answer every day (bare minimum). I would deliberately write answers at night because my hand would get cramped due to the cold weather and I would challenge my own self to overcome that. All of this in the anticipation of that dream coming true some day. I used to be excited to solve mocks and see how much I would score.
I remember scoring 41/200 when I first attempted the Pre 2018 paper at home. Surely I was demoralised but I would get excited thinking about how I can improve, what more things I could learn and the subsequent effect on score. Next year, I scored 98/200 in Pre 2019 when I attempted it at my home. I was happy that I had improved. I would often get excited thinking about being closer to "the dream". In my final year, I had three job offers in hand, I had cleared GATE and CAT (with a decent percentile). I gave up all of it thinking that I am closer to that dream now so why waste time in side quests? Excited, I would slog harder and harder every single day, scoring 120s in GS mocks. All my focus was on Pre 2020. But then CoVID happened and my mental health took a nose dive. I panicked during Pre 2020 and scored 79. I was out of the list. The dream which seemed so near was now pushed further away by one year. But still in the excitement that one day I will achieve this dream, I picked up my pen again and wrote an Essay FLT the next day of the Pre results. I was among the top scorers. I was pumped. The excitement was back!
*Few ways down the road* Oct 2021 - "0 results found" flashed on my screen. I had failed Prelims again. My friends told me "Bhai 0.3% baccho ka hota hai yaar. Shayad luck saath nahi diya hoga". I replied "Arre toh ye luck mera saath kyu nahi deta?". I later found out that I had failed Prelims by 2 marks that year. The dream I once saw felt like a Mirage. No matter how much I ran towards it, it just goes farther away. I sat down and found out the blunder I was not acknowledging was my emotional impulsiveness. In the last 5 mins of Pre 2021, I had marked 5 extra questions which turned out to be wrong. That year I learnt the importance of emotional intelligence. I knew I had to learn the art of emotional self-regulation. I was excited to know if I was correct. I formulated strategy for that. When I came out of the exam hall after CSAT, I told my friend "Bhai lagta hai mai cutoff hi chase karta rehe jaunga". The result of Pre 2022 came soon enough and this time I had cleared.
The excitement of writing Mains 2022 was immense. I got UPSC Bhavan as my centre!!! The feeling of standing in front of the Dholpur House was unimaginable. I thought the dream of that 19 yr old kid will come true. My batchmates in PG thought I would leave the course midway.
*Fast forward to Dec 6 2022* "0 Results found". I looked at my admit card and tore it in half. Still next day, I was in the institute library slogging hard again thinking about the dream coming true "some" day.
*Fast forward to Dec 8, 2023* Placement season was on and I was rejected from a job because of a small technicality. Almost everyone was placed in my batch. Now in this context, I desperately needed a "win". I needed the Mains result in my favour. I opened the pdf. "0 results found". I turned to my friend, nodded my head and mouthed "No". My friend shouted "Arre bhai, galat roll number daala hoga wapas se check kar". I re-entered and the result was the same. Then my friend said "Apni girlfriend ka check kar". I entered her roll number (as I remembered it) and she had cleared (now ex and got selected eventually).
I hit rock bottom that day. I was left behind. I was not jealous of my then gf clearing Mains (I had always supported her in this regard) but I was sad that I couldn't clear. The dream flashed before me. I thought that I would never achieve that dream "ever". I had lost faith in myself. My confidence was at an all-time low. I had lost my appetite.
So when I sat down to analyze my mistakes, I could clearly see where I was going wrong (Discussed in another forum comment after final results of 2023). The excitement to improve upon them and implement them motivated me to try again. I wanted to see if I do improve upon all of my mistakes and formulate a strategy then will I be able to achieve that dream?
In this context, I really liked this quote: "Failure only means we are one step closer to success" - Rocket Boys (2022)
So for the last 6 months, I worked for more than 11 hours per day hoping that some day I will get closer to that dream.@Neyawn 's image just made me recall all of this.
During my preparation days, I was happy simply because of this element of "excitement". Charting out strategy on my whiteboard, passionately debating on how I could implement innovative ideas in an effective way, listening to my friend criticizing the quality of answers in my mocks and getting tips from him etc. Everything was in the pursuit of this possibility of having a dream come true.
When I look back, I am happy how far I have come while pursuing this dream of mine.
तमसो मा ज्योतिर्गमय
(From the Darkness (of Ignorance), make me go towards the Light)
Happy Diwali everyone!
अभी इक शोर सा उठा है कहीं
कोई ख़ामोश हो गया है कहीं
है कुछ ऐसा कि जैसे ये सब कुछ
इस से पहले भी हो चुका है कहीं
तुझ को क्या हो गया कि चीज़ों को
कहीं रखता है ढूँढता है कहीं
जो यहाँ से कहीं न जाता था
वो यहाँ से चला गया है कहीं
आज शमशान की सी बू है यहाँ
क्या कोई जिस्म जल रहा है कहीं
हम किसी के नहीं जहाँ के सिवा
ऐसी वो ख़ास बात क्या है कहीं
तू मुझे ढूँड मैं तुझे ढूँडूँ
कोई हम में से रह गया है कहीं
कितनी वहशत है दरमियान-ए-हुजूम
जिस को देखो गया हुआ है कहीं
मैं तो अब शहर में कहीं भी नहीं
क्या मिरा नाम भी लिखा है कहीं
इसी कमरे से कोई हो के विदाअ'
इसी कमरे में छुप गया है कहीं
मिल के हर शख़्स से हुआ महसूस
मुझ से ये शख़्स मिल चुका है कहीं
Good luck to all those waiting for mains results.Bhai aaram se rest karo abhi rashte me bhi nhi khi durr durr tak 😂😂😂
Paper evaluation, moderation, tabulation etc over. Member shortage like previous two three years. So there will be a prolonged period of interview this year as well. BJP people don't find RSS cadres masquerading as scholars to appoint as members.
Chlo bhai tumhari maan lete hai is baar 😂😂
