Ultimate Path to Suicide Coup (UPSC)

@iskool Yeah man, I know what it means!!! My exact thoughts are nothing. I am just tired of "pretending" to be a UPSC aspirant when in reality I waste time  and do less prepp. I start one thing and then get stuck on it for the rest of the day, meanwhile browsing all sorts of shitty platforms.Sometimes, I don't know what to study what not, there is optional, all GS, ethics, essay.... its ust so much, i get over burdened. 

Right now, i started Sep monthly (Vision), preparing notes from it. 

Its just that I am unable to cope with my failures. How high i thought of myself, I will do this and then this etc etc but in reality, i am just an incapable being, doomed to fail (rock bottom self confidence) because I WASTE TIME>