Vanish

There are times when you feel compromised... Like your life, feelings, things, everything... Even privacy... Everything is just in air... 

Meri behan ko lgta h ki m alsi hu.. Meri maa ko lgta h ki mujhe kuch krna ni h.. Mere ex ko to pta ni kya kya lgta h.. 

Bs mujhe hi kuch nahi lgta... Shyd lagna band ho gya h... 

I know I'm not supposed to be all broken and in pain and blah blah.. 

But ni acha lgta mujhe... 

I detest everything at present time.. 

Every damn thing.. 

I hate my job thanks to my toxic seniors jinko bs khud k number bnane h.. 

I hate everything.. 

And maje ki baat yeh h i can't seem to catch a break... 

Milta hi ni h break mereko to think to ponder to relax... 

Sala din raat kich pich kich pich.. 

Maan krta h bhag jaun sb kuch chod kr.. 

But kya kre mamta itni kutti cheez h wo bhi ni kr skti hu... 

1time tha jb m passionate thi sb cheezon k liye ab to mujhe lgta h jeena hi saza ho gyi h.. 

I was never afraid of anything before but now I'm scared of everything.. Everybody.. 

Uparse yahan bhi likhne se pehle m 10baar sochti hu kyunki mera ex sb padta h.. And i dont want to give him the pleasure to see me in pain.. 

Likhti hu... Delete krti hu.. 

Fir likhti hu... 

Fir delete krti hu... 

Uparse yeh chote bhai behno ki problem kya h yr unko kya maja ata h dusro k face m apni acheivements rub krne m.. 

My sister got selected in tiss mumbai... Irrespective how scared she was and how supportive I was.. Ab mujhe gyan milta h.. 

Ki mene socha bhi nahi tha.. U have to be very this and that.. 

It's not my ego but yr i don't want to hear anything about anything right now.. 

Saala shadi krlo krlo shor krte h fir usmein bhi janjhat h.. 

I just wanna leave everything like ryt now & go.. Just vanish...