Mann hi ni kar raha. Itna mann karta hai to come back on Forum but this is not 2020 anymore. My friends@whatonly ,@AzadHindFauz @sjerngal and many others are already selected and I am still slogging. I come here and I feel defeated. Isiliye, mann ni karta aane ka yahan.
Uljhanein badhti gayi, mai jhelta raha...
Waqt ne maidan me utara, mai khelta raha...
Log kehne lage tu pagal ho jayega, mai sunta raha...
Logo ki baato ko man me dabaye, apne sapne bunta raha...
Lekin kaise batau mai in logo ko, jab waqt badlega to mai nahi mera vishwas badlega...
Fir ye pagal in logo ko nahi, pura itihaas badlega!!!!
Keep slogging, bro. Your time will come!
Very motivational sir, waiting for that day too🙏
Today's update-
Didn't do anything good and have to be guilting of getting up late. When I was supposed to be at reading room by 6,I delayed it by 2:30 hours.Did NP+ Rajesh Mishra's Additions+ around 10 pages of Economy+ Evening stuff(PS, Off vgarah)
Tomorrow's tasks-
A relevant PSIR Article(Topic 5 of P2A; Liberalism and more specifically, Interdependence Theories)- https://www.project-syndicate.org/commentary/ukraine-war-shows-more-than-commerce-needed-for-peace-by-anne-marie-slaughter-and-ian-shapiro-2022-07
@LetsGetThisBread You are being modest in your assessment here. You will end up with far better things(read civil servant) in life.
Shubh Ratri doston!
Today's update-
Didn't do anything good and have to be guilting of getting up late. When I was supposed to be at reading room by 6,I delayed it by 2:30 hours.Did NP+ Rajesh Mishra's Additions+ around 10 pages of Economy+ Evening stuff(PS, Off vgarah)
Tomorrow's tasks-
A relevant PSIR Article(Topic 5 of P2A; Liberalism and more specifically, Interdependence Theories)- https://www.project-syndicate.org/commentary/ukraine-war-shows-more-than-commerce-needed-for-peace-by-anne-marie-slaughter-and-ian-shapiro-2022-07
@LetsGetThisBread You are being modest in your assessment here. You will end up with far better things(read civil servant) in life.
Shubh Ratri doston!
Haha thank you for saying that. And project syndicate is a gold mine as far as PSIR is concerned
1,2 done. 3 not done (which comes as a surprise because newspaper was the only thing I was doing regularly all these days.)
For today, 20.07.22-
1. Eco- Mrunal Pillar 1- 60 pages
2. Optional- pyqs 2016-19
3. Newspaper- of yesterday and today
Good day!
1- did 30 pages, 2- not done, 3- done. Overall average day. Productivity is low for days when I've just started.
For today, 21.07.22-
1. Complete Mrunal Pillar 1A w current updation
2. Optional- Huck Finn pyqs 2016-19
3. Newspaper
Good luck friends :)
Was about to finish the first target when I dropped out, not to touch my books again for the whole day. Woke up early today and did some work. Now the status is: 1,3- done; 2-not done(again!)
I want to set my sleep cycle aright, so mentioning only two targets, that I can easily complete before 11.
1. Optional- all remaining pyqs + test ques.
2. Newspaper.
Good day, guys!
Did only newspaper.
Productivity is low, procrastination high. My screen time is an easy 6-8 hours everyday. One particular day it was more than 9.
So, I have decided to quit my smartphone. Have realised I won't be able to overcome my addiction to my phone until I physically distance myself from it. Will shift to my grandmother's Samsung Guru instead. I have tried this strategy before as well, and it worked pretty good for me.
Will stay off this platform and ypt for a while.
Until next time!
Have completed all previous targets while traveling.
Targets For Today ( 14/07/2022)
1. Newspapers ( 3) + Notes
2. Plan readjustments
3. Clean the room
4. 2 Lectures of Mrunal Economy
Progress Update
All previous targets done.
Update on what I have covered so far and what I have to cover this month.
What I have done so far
1. Polity and Constitution is mostly done : Reading wise - recall is fairly average at best - notes - halfway done -
What I need to do-
1. Give mock tests - MCQ based + Start AW on static topics + Brainstorm PYQs + Complete Notes - Revise ( Polity)
2. Economics - Was supposed to finish Mrunal course by this week and then revise -Complete Focus on that till July 31st - Finish the course and give course tests - move to answer writing
4. Develop consistency in Newspaper reading
5. Finish Environment & Ecology Basics
Restarting YPT - Joining a library
Targets - 18/07
1. TIE (17+18) + Notes
2. 2 Economy Lectures
3. Pollution
4. Revise - Ch9 +10 Polity ncert - related topics from laxmikanth
1. Done
2. 1 Lec done
3. 20%
4. Done
Targets 19/07
1. TIE ( 10+19) + Notes
2. 2 Economy Lec +1 pending lecture
3. Pollution (2/4)
4. Polity Rev (2)- P,C,T
Things have not been good at home. Not just for me and studies but w.r.t everyone else.
Only 1& 4 done
Targets 20/07
1. TIE ( 11+20) + Notes
2. Pollution 2/4
3. Eco lectures (3)
4. Polity Revision
Newspaper Done , rest targets repeat!
These targets are done. Took me two days but done.
Targets for today (23/07)
1. Newspaper
2. Economics 1A2 +Quiz
3. Polity Revision ( Constitutional History )
Most days are energyless for me. No motivation to do more than what I am doing right now, a simple govt. job.
I lost one of my parent last year and things haven't been on track from then on. Missed 2021 preliminary by 0.66 (ahh!). I feel I am unable to give time to my people but I guess it's because I have nothing interesting to tell them or talk about.
I joined a group C govt. job because of father's worries about my future aur yahan bhi man nahi lag raha. I have always believed that the thing which you do for most part of the day is where you succeed.
8 hours job + 8 hours sleep + 1hour (before + after job) + 2 hours daily chores + phone calls eat most part of my day. I am left with 2-3 hours. I have a 6 day central govt. job.
I don't know if it is lack of motivation or I seriously don't have time for UPSC anymore.
But everytime I say I don't have time for UPSC it feels like a mini breakup. I don't know if I am lost or it's a phase or I'm down with some kind of depression (sorry if I used that word casually). One thing for sure is I am unable to take UPSC as an exam now. I feel bad and sad.
Any worldly or unworldly gyaan is invited.
Most days are energyless for me. No motivation to do more than what I am doing right now, a simple govt. job.
I lost one of my parent last year and things haven't been on track from then on. Missed 2021 preliminary by 0.66 (ahh!). I feel I am unable to give time to my people but I guess it's because I have nothing interesting to tell them or talk about.
I joined a group C govt. job because of father's worries about my future aur yahan bhi man nahi lag raha. I have always believed that the thing which you do for most part of the day is where you succeed.
8 hours job + 8 hours sleep + 1hour (before + after job) + 2 hours daily chores + phone calls eat most part of my day. I am left with 2-3 hours. I have a 6 day central govt. job.
I don't know if it is lack of motivation or I seriously don't have time for UPSC anymore.
But everytime I say I don't have time for UPSC it feels like a mini breakup. I don't know if I am lost or it's a phase or I'm down with some kind of depression (sorry if I used that word casually). One thing for sure is I am unable to take UPSC as an exam now. I feel bad and sad.
Any worldly or unworldly gyaan is invited.
what happens is , we dwelve so deep into the anxiety and hopelessness by giving constant attention to it, it takes form of depression gradually, and everythings seems utterly unpleasant.
par actually the truth is that it is a phase, surely a very bad one, but a temporary phase, this is the truth and first of all you have to realise this, that it is temporary and it can change, it will definitely change.
then you decide to cahnge things and start taking action.
aur upar se apne UPSC ka weight le liya hai sar pe, thode time tak usko side rakho, concentrate on your well being , try and get out of this mindset, effort lagao, journal likho, socialise karo, bhale hi resistance aa raha ho par karo.
try to do things that make you feel good, dhire dhire thik hone lagengi chizein. fir upsc ko bhi leana wapas, achhe mindset ke sath taiyari hogi.
Short and simply explained topic:
Have completed all previous targets while traveling.
Targets For Today ( 14/07/2022)
1. Newspapers ( 3) + Notes
2. Plan readjustments
3. Clean the room
4. 2 Lectures of Mrunal Economy
Progress Update
All previous targets done.
Update on what I have covered so far and what I have to cover this month.
What I have done so far
1. Polity and Constitution is mostly done : Reading wise - recall is fairly average at best - notes - halfway done -
What I need to do-
1. Give mock tests - MCQ based + Start AW on static topics + Brainstorm PYQs + Complete Notes - Revise ( Polity)
2. Economics - Was supposed to finish Mrunal course by this week and then revise -Complete Focus on that till July 31st - Finish the course and give course tests - move to answer writing
4. Develop consistency in Newspaper reading
5. Finish Environment & Ecology Basics
Restarting YPT - Joining a library
Targets - 18/07
1. TIE (17+18) + Notes
2. 2 Economy Lectures
3. Pollution
4. Revise - Ch9 +10 Polity ncert - related topics from laxmikanth
1. Done
2. 1 Lec done
3. 20%
4. Done
Targets 19/07
1. TIE ( 10+19) + Notes
2. 2 Economy Lec +1 pending lecture
3. Pollution (2/4)
4. Polity Rev (2)- P,C,T
Things have not been good at home. Not just for me and studies but w.r.t everyone else.
Only 1& 4 done
Targets 20/07
1. TIE ( 11+20) + Notes
2. Pollution 2/4
3. Eco lectures (3)
4. Polity Revision
Newspaper Done , rest targets repeat!
These targets are done. Took me two days but done.
Targets for today (23/07)
1. Newspaper
2. Economics 1A2 +Quiz
3. Polity Revision ( Constitutional History )
1. Done
2. Done
3. 25% done
No targets as such for 24/07 only did revision of what I had done earlier and solved some pre PYQs
Will do brainstorming for mains PYQs before sleeping. Good day - study wise
Targets for 25/07
1. TIE + Notes
2. Economics 1B1
3. FR ( 1/3 )
4. EVS - Acts (1/2)
Today's update-
Didn't do anything good and have to be guilting of getting up late. When I was supposed to be at reading room by 6,I delayed it by 2:30 hours.Did NP+ Rajesh Mishra's Additions+ around 10 pages of Economy+ Evening stuff(PS, Off vgarah)
Tomorrow's tasks-
A relevant PSIR Article(Topic 5 of P2A; Liberalism and more specifically, Interdependence Theories)- https://www.project-syndicate.org/commentary/ukraine-war-shows-more-than-commerce-needed-for-peace-by-anne-marie-slaughter-and-ian-shapiro-2022-07
@LetsGetThisBread You are being modest in your assessment here. You will end up with far better things(read civil servant) in life.
Shubh Ratri doston!
A day late and have still missed some portions. This has been of the most unproductive week for me. I have missed deadlines by good enough margin.
Also,since now I have State PCS Prelims on 31st, I will be leaving for home on 29th from Delhi. What I just expect is to write at least one more test of MGP. I initially planned to complete GS 3 before I jumped into college exams,that will eat whole of August. Since that isn't happening now anyhow, I will try doing Environment and DM alongside Geography in September.
Tomorrow is CA day. Struggleof reading May CA of Vision continues.
@LetsGetThisBread Indeed. I absolutely love PS. Also,reading PS reinforces ki Nye aur Stiglitz zinda hai and Shashi Tharoor still talks sense.lol!
Also, Stiglitz did write on Soft Power some days back and Nye be like- Where do I fit in now!
Shubh Ratri doston !
Most days are energyless for me. No motivation to do more than what I am doing right now, a simple govt. job.
I lost one of my parent last year and things haven't been on track from then on. Missed 2021 preliminary by 0.66 (ahh!). I feel I am unable to give time to my people but I guess it's because I have nothing interesting to tell them or talk about.
I joined a group C govt. job because of father's worries about my future aur yahan bhi man nahi lag raha. I have always believed that the thing which you do for most part of the day is where you succeed.
8 hours job + 8 hours sleep + 1hour (before + after job) + 2 hours daily chores + phone calls eat most part of my day. I am left with 2-3 hours. I have a 6 day central govt. job.
I don't know if it is lack of motivation or I seriously don't have time for UPSC anymore.
But everytime I say I don't have time for UPSC it feels like a mini breakup. I don't know if I am lost or it's a phase or I'm down with some kind of depression (sorry if I used that word casually). One thing for sure is I am unable to take UPSC as an exam now. I feel bad and sad.
Any worldly or unworldly gyaan is invited.
Sir,don't worry. Do what seems doable.
Also, don't be hard on your ownself. This struggle is such that we become sensitive to all the worldly problems,but often insensitive to our personal problems.
Also,take care of your papa.
Best-est of luck, sir !
Most days are energyless for me. No motivation to do more than what I am doing right now, a simple govt. job.
I lost one of my parent last year and things haven't been on track from then on. Missed 2021 preliminary by 0.66 (ahh!). I feel I am unable to give time to my people but I guess it's because I have nothing interesting to tell them or talk about.
I joined a group C govt. job because of father's worries about my future aur yahan bhi man nahi lag raha. I have always believed that the thing which you do for most part of the day is where you succeed.
8 hours job + 8 hours sleep + 1hour (before + after job) + 2 hours daily chores + phone calls eat most part of my day. I am left with 2-3 hours. I have a 6 day central govt. job.
I don't know if it is lack of motivation or I seriously don't have time for UPSC anymore.
But everytime I say I don't have time for UPSC it feels like a mini breakup. I don't know if I am lost or it's a phase or I'm down with some kind of depression (sorry if I used that word casually). One thing for sure is I am unable to take UPSC as an exam now. I feel bad and sad.
Any worldly or unworldly gyaan is invited.
First of all, I would like to remind you that aap bhi insaan ho so apne aap ko itna harshly judge mat kijiye. You have gone through extremely difficult times recently so it’s ok to feel down in the dumps. I cant even begin to imagine what losing a parent might feel like.
Worldly gyaan: if you still feel like doing UPSC, understand that your study day will be much smaller than the average aspirant’s. So you’ll have to make consistency your strength. Plan those 2-3 hours well and try and do as much as possible. Avoid phone calls as much as possible if they’re unnecessary (itna toh tyaag diye ho life m already, yeh bhi kar paoge). Weekend ka bharpoor istemal kijiye padhai m.
Otherwordly gyaan: You know your situation better than anyone else. So it would be easy for me or for anyone else on this platform to tell you what to do and for you to go “WTF yeh toh bekaar h” (I would do that tbh). If you’re feeling this way about UPSC take a break from one cycle, refresh yourself and then come back, if age is not a factor. And I don’t know if you’ve managed to cope with losing your parent so early but agar woh tough lag raha h toh I would advise going for a few sessions of therapy or at least finding a support group to talk about these issues.