if you really want to win and come out of this mess...and ready to make ANY changes asked to do , then contact@Neyawn ... he has the magic potion for anyone like you.I am quitting this journey.
I passed from IIT in 2014 with 9 pointer. Got job opportunities in decent companies, even cleared Gates with under good rank but left all that for UPSC.2015- clear pre. Failed mains. My depression cycle starts.
2016- cleared pre . Failed mains again. I became isolated.
2017 - cleared prelims , failed mains by 90 marks. Depression intensified. Weight reached 80+ kg. Eyesight crossed -4 in both eyes.
2018- cleared prelims , failed mains by 110 marks again. Suicide became a recurring thought.
2019- gave myself a break , soche depression kam hoga.
2020- cleared prelims, and within 10 days I am going to write mains. And 110% sure the gap will be 90+ marks again. Obviously jo exam ke phle ye sab bakwaas likh rha ho uska naam thore aayega.
Ghar par hain avi, dil jor jor se keh raha hai ki papa mummi ko bata de ki nahi hoga hmse ye ratta, ye mugging, ye humanities , nahi denge iss saal mains exam magar bol nahi paa rhe. Itna sunk cost ho gya hai.
Magar samajh me nahi aa rha ki kare toh kya kare. Websites check kiye toh pata chala 27 years max limit hota hai most good alternatives to UPSC ka like IB ACIO, AAI Junior assistant etc. Wo v haath se chala gya.
Bus bacha hai State PSC , magar result aate aate bhaiya se uncle ho jaenge.
Soche nahi the kavi aisa din aaega. Future bleak lagta hai , 5 attempt ho gya hai , haath me aaya kuch nahi.
Papa agle saal retire karne wale hain , aur hm burden bankar gale me baithe hain unke. Man karta hai ki khatam karo ye natak , quit karo life, Economy ka toh aise v halat kharab hai , hm kya hiin ukhaad lenge agar kuch business start kiye v toh.
Kaash ye forum ke bare me phle se pata hota, college se nikalte ye padh liye hote, itna time waste nahi hota mera. Koi tha nahi batane wala ki babu fat jaegi tmhari agar unlucky huye few attempts me toh, bola gya hmko ki social media (of all types) se door raho - so forum se v door rahe. Ab Isolation itna badh gya hai ki bahar ka duniya dekhe 4 month ho gya hai. Sirf maid ko pata hai ki hm exist karte hain.
Kisko sunaye apna problem , papa mummi ko ? wo toh apne old-age medical issues se pareshan hain, bada bhai behan ko , wo log bolte settle kar jao koi v 30k type job lekar private me. ab unko kya hm bole ki bada ambition rakhne par , kuch v usse alag pasand nahi ata. Gajab dilemma hai: Armaan upar ka hai magar kabiliyat hai nahi aur niche jaane ka awsar hai magar ego jaane nahi deta. aise me mare nahi toh kya kare.. aap batao.
Ek baat bus janna hai topper log se ki wo log kya sochte hain unke baare me jinka nahi hota hai? Qki jinka hota hai wo toh kehte hain ki hmne mehnat kiya toh hua , so iska matlab hai jinka nahi hua wo mehnat nahi kiya. Ya unko direction/guidance nahi mila. Ya guidance mila toh motivation nahi mila. kya sochte hain toppers unke bare me jo piche choot gye. Hm ye puch isliye rhe qki mere ek dost ka RBI Grade B nikla aur wo kehta hai ki mehnat karoge toh UPSC v niklega. Hurt huye hm. Isliye puch rhe ki sab aisa hiin sochte hain kya.
The only condition is "whatever he says"you have talent ... just make use of it...what vse is all about... you have wrong idea
How to contact him ? Please tell , I really need some useful guidance after wasting 2 years in the journey.
if you really want to win and come out of this mess...and ready to make ANY changes asked to do , then contact@Neyawn ... he has the magic potion for anyone like you.I am quitting this journey.
I passed from IIT in 2014 with 9 pointer. Got job opportunities in decent companies, even cleared Gates with under good rank but left all that for UPSC.2015- clear pre. Failed mains. My depression cycle starts.
2016- cleared pre . Failed mains again. I became isolated.
2017 - cleared prelims , failed mains by 90 marks. Depression intensified. Weight reached 80+ kg. Eyesight crossed -4 in both eyes.
2018- cleared prelims , failed mains by 110 marks again. Suicide became a recurring thought.
2019- gave myself a break , soche depression kam hoga.
2020- cleared prelims, and within 10 days I am going to write mains. And 110% sure the gap will be 90+ marks again. Obviously jo exam ke phle ye sab bakwaas likh rha ho uska naam thore aayega.
Ghar par hain avi, dil jor jor se keh raha hai ki papa mummi ko bata de ki nahi hoga hmse ye ratta, ye mugging, ye humanities , nahi denge iss saal mains exam magar bol nahi paa rhe. Itna sunk cost ho gya hai.
Magar samajh me nahi aa rha ki kare toh kya kare. Websites check kiye toh pata chala 27 years max limit hota hai most good alternatives to UPSC ka like IB ACIO, AAI Junior assistant etc. Wo v haath se chala gya.
Bus bacha hai State PSC , magar result aate aate bhaiya se uncle ho jaenge.
Soche nahi the kavi aisa din aaega. Future bleak lagta hai , 5 attempt ho gya hai , haath me aaya kuch nahi.
Papa agle saal retire karne wale hain , aur hm burden bankar gale me baithe hain unke. Man karta hai ki khatam karo ye natak , quit karo life, Economy ka toh aise v halat kharab hai , hm kya hiin ukhaad lenge agar kuch business start kiye v toh.
Kaash ye forum ke bare me phle se pata hota, college se nikalte ye padh liye hote, itna time waste nahi hota mera. Koi tha nahi batane wala ki babu fat jaegi tmhari agar unlucky huye few attempts me toh, bola gya hmko ki social media (of all types) se door raho - so forum se v door rahe. Ab Isolation itna badh gya hai ki bahar ka duniya dekhe 4 month ho gya hai. Sirf maid ko pata hai ki hm exist karte hain.
Kisko sunaye apna problem , papa mummi ko ? wo toh apne old-age medical issues se pareshan hain, bada bhai behan ko , wo log bolte settle kar jao koi v 30k type job lekar private me. ab unko kya hm bole ki bada ambition rakhne par , kuch v usse alag pasand nahi ata. Gajab dilemma hai: Armaan upar ka hai magar kabiliyat hai nahi aur niche jaane ka awsar hai magar ego jaane nahi deta. aise me mare nahi toh kya kare.. aap batao.
Ek baat bus janna hai topper log se ki wo log kya sochte hain unke baare me jinka nahi hota hai? Qki jinka hota hai wo toh kehte hain ki hmne mehnat kiya toh hua , so iska matlab hai jinka nahi hua wo mehnat nahi kiya. Ya unko direction/guidance nahi mila. Ya guidance mila toh motivation nahi mila. kya sochte hain toppers unke bare me jo piche choot gye. Hm ye puch isliye rhe qki mere ek dost ka RBI Grade B nikla aur wo kehta hai ki mehnat karoge toh UPSC v niklega. Hurt huye hm. Isliye puch rhe ki sab aisa hiin sochte hain kya.
The only condition is "whatever he says"you have talent ... just make use of it...what vse is all about... you have wrong idea
How to contact him ? Please tell , I really need some useful guidance after wasting 2 years in the journey.
@Neyawn lives in this page only !! tag him ! he is omnipresent!
Okay.
I have given two Prelims in 2019 ( just after doing coaching of 5 hours daily, Vajiram and solving no test series in exam like condition shamelessly) - result was I failed in it by a mrgin of 20 marks . And in 2020 attempt I majorly prepared for Prelims and still I think I have missed the cutoff by 1 or 2 marks.
After the result came in October I was completely shattered , I was not hoping it all . And in November and December I haven't prepared much for Mains ( just optional paper 1 and ancient history ) , again I have the feeling that I will prepare in haste for Prelims as time is less and may again falter or even if I clear Prelims there is just Gap of 60-70 days effectively, I may not do good in Mains.
Will it be advisable to take a break this year and give my attempt in 2022 with full preparation?? I am 23 now and being a girl . Can someone please here suggest as you have more experiences , what to do ?
What are other diverse things I can do like attempting state pcs or any other things ? Please help me to devise my plan ahead. I failed in previous attempts due to lack of strategy and I was preparing from home and didn't take tests in exam like condition.
Please help me.
