My journey is similar to many other fellow aspirants and knowing that some empathetic souls will read this , I felt like expressing the emotional upheaval out here.
I entered the boat of UPSC in 2016. Wrote 3 mains and gave one interview. I knew I was honest in my efforts. Always kept having the belief that I will see my name in the list someday. The emotion of not seeing my name in the final list in 2020 was a jolt which was hard to cope up with.
In the next few days , I had all kinds of scenes from the past ( the moment I began preparing , the things I gave up for it including a PSU job and a very serious relationship) revolving in front of my eyes.
Then the uncertainties of the future haunted me for quite some time.
Although I have grown through the journey and new dimensions have been added in my persona, yet some part of me has been consumed in this as well. Probably that was a transition from a keen boy to a serious man.
Having mustered the courage , I gave my 5th attempt in 2022.
Whatever be the result , I now know that uncertainties are a norm of life and one can never have full control on the outcomes.
Surely, I am going to move forward to other endeavours though I don’t yet know what would they be.
