It has been 4.5 years now, started in beginning of 2016. It was the 3rd attempt, wrote all three mains and this was the 2nd interview. Was hoping to be somewhere there but was not. Initial feeling was of shock and numbness, felt like the journey is now officially over. But in last 2-3 days, tried to regroup whatever is left to put in one more effort. Marks are not out yet but I must have faltered in mains I think. The journey ahead is hard as the enthusiasm and the spirit is not as high as it was in the last attempts. Let's see what happens.