Civil Services Mains 2020 Results: In or Out ? Way ahead, gratitude and Pain

Heroes are born with surrounding stories around them.

But yes its true that very few people understood what he was talking actually. His ideas were too thick for that generation. May be because at that time people had a newtonian conception of time, nobody could imagine that time is relative.

Yaaar, I forwarded it to a few people. :( 

Hahaha popat banaya. Mujhe toh ab pata chal raha.

Anyways thanks for the info. 

I believed it to be true because I  am a great fan of Brian Green and in his speeches he talks about the rejections of Einstein and relativity Ofcourse. 

Thenks UPSC 🥲

Okay, looooooooooooooong answer. :P

As I’ve explained before on this platform, I had a gap of 3 and a half years after work ex of 2 years. I went back to the same designation but with a reasonable hike. I was extremely fortunate because I still had the goodwill from the time I worked at the organisation previously. 

In order to understand what I mean by improved performance, I think you need a little background. I was 21 when I first got the job and just turned 22 when I joined. I got the job despite having chilled excessively for five years in college. I had decent marks and good extra curricular achievements but I never had to work extremely hard for them. Further, I had the National Law School tag, even though I was from a lower rung one.

When I first joined the organisation in 2016, I did not understand the value of hard work. I did not understand the relevance of my job and how important it was even in the larger scheme of things. I was working alongside MBAs from IIMs and few other people who took their work extremely seriously. Even in that climate, I realised that I could still chill and get by. I had unlimited sick leaves (which I abused), and I used the many opportunities that came by where I could skive off work. Despite that, I made a decent impression at the workplace because I had the uncanny ability to make it appear as if I was the guy who had things under control. I did fake it a lot of the time, and that helped. You might think I’m lying, but I assure you that I am not. There is a saying in the movie American Beauty: “In order to be successful, one must always project the image of success.” I lived by this philosophy, and still do to some extent. That is what allowed me to go back to the job after such a long gap. 

In the second year that I worked there, my work always played second fiddle to my preparation. I did not mention a word about wanting to leave until I actually put in my papers. People depended on me, and I disregarded that by keeping my intentions of leaving a complete secret. Even after I put in my papers, the head of the legal department offered me leave for one year so that I could write the exam. Despite that offer, I quit simply because they were banking on me failing the exam when they made the offer. Stupid decision in retrospect. 

I know all of this makes me seem like someone who did not understand his privilege and the opportunity he was presented, but that is because I was. There are no two ways about it.

Cut to 2021. Things which took me days to respond to now take me minutes. In 2017, I handled a limited portfolio, but now I handle all of the portfolio relating to Small and Medium Enterprises in all of Tamil Nadu and Kerala. Because of my preparation and the kind of value it added, I understand the value of my work. In 2016, I thought of myself as a paper pusher who made a rich organisation richer. Now, I understand my role and its  importance vis-a-vis the people of the country and the economy as a whole. I understand the implication of each clause of every document I approve because of my knowledge of economics, and this goes much beyond what my role demands. I respect the hardworking people I work with, and always try to help rather than thinking that the easier way out is to not help them out. My preparation for my optional has made me thorough with laws I need to use, and that contributes immensely to my work everyday in terms of productivity gains. Rather than thinking of myself and my needs as the end, I think of how I can best use my role to support causes that would help my country. 

I’m now able to identify the problems associated with most of the transactions I deal with and that too, from multiple dimensions. More importantly, I have become solution driven, and more often than not, I identify solutions along with the problem. 

I don’t mean to say that I don’t fake it anymore. Of course I do. Only difference is that now, I go back and get to a position where I don’t have to fake it the next time. Maybe all this added value is a factor of my age as well. I’m not 22 anymore. I turned 27 last May, and I’ve grown into a much more well rounded individual.

I respect the job so much more, because I know what it was like when I did not have the comfort it offered. I know what it means to fail. I hadn’t tasted real failure or real loss before. I didn’t know how to bounce back. I didn’t know how to stay calm  when things weren’t going my way. My sense of responsibility was limited to staying out of trouble, and making an impression for myself. I’m simply not that person anymore. 

Even now, I wake up at 4 in the morning every day to prepare for this exam. My work day ends post 8 on most work days. Yet, I find time for a workout and for speaking to the people I love. This exam taught me how to do that. 

Since back options are considered and I also belong to same category after failing multiple times in this exam with few marks .

Being from humble and unprivileged background with just arts graduate this is hunting me more than anything else !

I have applied for upsc EPFO .

Can anyone tell me how is the job profile  of Account officer and future scope ?

Is it worth preparing with 200% intensity ?

And tanking a break to support myself with a decent job .

Please help me out !!

Bharti ke form kab niklenge ?

It's a pretty great opportunity. I haven't heard of anyone leaving this post for anything else bar Civil Services. Job profile is good enough. Excellent work-life balance, pretty much everything one needs to live a comfortable life. If posted as AO, will get more than enough time for preparation too. Give your 300%. It's one of my main targets this year too. 

When can we expect new calendar of entire year ?

Any idea !!