Right now i am feeling utterly clueless. I am unmoored. I was happy eating samosa with chutney and suddenly my father started quizzing me on rivers. Dhauli meets ganga where, Which tributary joins at rudraprayag etc etc. As soon as he asks me something it seems something in me goes missing. He shouted at me a lot, saying stuff like "you don't study that's why you don't succeed" "You are useless in all aspects, right now you should stand with your head bowed and you are crying like this. You have an attitude problem."
I am thinking about two options. Either I should run away or I should die. I know I sound melodramatic as hell but I just can't take it anymore. I don't have any way out. I am not smart enough or I don't work hard enough I don't even know anymore. I have saved some 30-35k and I am genuinely thinking of running somewhere, eating a lot have fun and then go die somewhere quiet in a way that won't bother anyone. I don't think I have anything to give to this world anyway. I am sorry for dumping all of this here, I know this is not the place for it. Everyone here has their own problems and are fighting them. I know nobody wants to hear me whine. Goodbye. This is my second and last comment on forum. I don't what i will do for now but I am done with all
