It's not regarding this attempt but this feeling of mine got strong after result . Since last 2-3 days I have heard success and failure stories, I have came across people who have written multiple mains and multiple interviews still not able to make to the finals and here I am failed in 2 prelims itself . I feel I stand no where in the competition .
1.Last year's AIR 9 cleared Prelims for the first time in her 3rd attempt and went on to get quite a good rank.(In her own words- She even expected failing to clear Prelims in 3rd attempt also)
2. I remember Pooja Ranawat Mam failing 4 continuous Prelims. Then she cleared with a decent rank and being PSIR topper that year.
3. This year's topper Pradeep Singh started in 2012. He failed in his first 2 Prelims and stopped preparing for UPSC. Joined Police as a normal inspector. Then came back for 2017 attempt to first clear IRS and then get AIR Rank in the next attempt.
Aaagey to@Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh bhi btayenge. As he says- Ham honge kamyab ek din.
Let me share my painful story:
Year 2010 ->Passed out from a top NIT
October 2013 ->left a highly paid job and came to Delhi to prepare for Civil Services
Gave 6 attempts back to back from CSE 2014 to CSE 2019
Wrote Mains in all the attempts
Gave Interview in CSE 2016 and CSE 2019
Missed Final list narrowly in CSE 2016,also missed Reserve list by 2 marks
On 4th August 2020, i was not able to find my name in the final list again. Not able to accept the reality till now. For CSE 2019, i had given all. Wrote more than 60 tests (joined multiple test series of GS,Essay, & Public Ad) and consistently scored good marks in all the test series. Moreover, i used to get better rank/score than this year's topper (AIR-1) in Pawan Kumar Sir's Public Ad test series.But all my hardwork has become meaningless. Life has become very difficult. Since i belong to obc so still i have attempts left but no courage left inside me. It seems Yeh andheri raat kabhi khatm nahi hogi
Bhai I know you must be going through a rough phase. In my opinion, you can consider the following-
- Keep preparing for UPSC CSE if you believe that you can still do it. Many have passed the exam when they were beyond 30 years old.
- Give a shot at State PSC
- You can decide to come out of this vicious cycle. Many have succeeded after not getting through(or dropping out of ) Civil Services Exam
Also don’t take too much of pressure.I am damn sure that 7 years of UPSC preparation must have transformed your personality. UPSC or no UPSC, you will certainly fly high in your life. As Anupam Kher often says- Kucch bhi ho sakta hai.
Gave 6 attempts.. Have been forum member since 2014 by different names.. Few might remember me from mains 2020 - when my father emptied my bank account.. ( he passed away this year) Had to borrow money to appear for mains and stay in Delhi in November 2020 until mains in January ..
Tough life.. Tough fight..
Now started free coaching class for prelims as hobby.. Site etc designing by myself by learning and doing.. Will be able to do it by September mid.. Though I am from commerce background.. So more than 2 months I have been learning same and asking for help from tech friends again and again...
Your lack of privilege makes me realise my privilege. Best of luck!
