CSE 2022: Plan/ Strategy/ Daily Routine
This is an everything thread for all stuff 2022. You can post your daily goals, end-of-the-day updates, weekly targets or any weird thing you use to measure your progress. You can put into words & post the soul-sucking sadness that is threatening to devour you & your productivity. You can write what made your day & let others experience the happiness too, at least vicariously. This is a thread to pick each other up. This is a thread to keep each other accountable. This is a no-judgement zone.
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“This is one more piece of advice I have for you: don't get impatient. Even if things are so tangled up you can't do anything, don't get desperate or blow a fuse and start yanking on one particular thread before it's ready to come undone. You have to realize it's going to be a long process and that you'll work on things slowly, one at a time.”
— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood
Hello people..:) I hope you people are doing well..
QUICK UPDATE: FOR ME.. the series of disappointment continues.. was getting back on track..but then ( winter ritual) Got cold and cough ..!
Suffered a lot yesterday.I don't know it was because of cough or may be the wind..but the headache was so severe..jaa hi nahi rha tha.
Somehow managed to sleep..(Yesterday)
Want to say sorry to all the socio folks..give me 1 or 2 days I'll post the topics..( keeping all the requirements in mind)
And as they say"unconditional apology" to all those people who shook me on YPT..( HAVE read that post people wanaa join...but trust me I had some problem because of the device) so was unavailable..but Now that everything is sorted I'll be back once in a good condition..
One more advice ( Guys please take care of yourself) it's too cold out there..Do have all the necessary precautions...Will try to complete the backlogs today..
Till then.tc folks..And keep working hard..:) we will clear this paper..:)
THE_MECHANIC,Cassidy
Hi, guys
How are you all managing mains and prelims prep from now on? Considering prelims is just 5 months away and failing at 1st pre in 2021, I am having a lot of anxiety attacks. Cannot focus on studies. Guidance to cope up with the same ?
Sleepless nights? Lack of concentration? Perhaps short deep work too? Feeling ki kuch cover hi nahi ho paa raha?
Believe me, most of peeps are feeling the same. And to be honest, I dont know how to cope up with the same. I'll tell you what I am doing. I am just trying to do study regardless of how I am feeling. The only thing we are allowed to do isbelievethat we dont regret the choice we made.
Its really frustrating, depressing yet infuriating at the same time.
" अपने आप से भी पीछे खड़ा हूँ मैं
ज़िंदगी कितना धीरे चला हूँ मैं "
Very few days left for SFG (and hence prelims prep) to begin. Need to put in a lot of effort over the next 20-25 days. Hopefully there are no externalities that'll affect the study sessions. Fingers crossed.
Targets:
- Finish Real Analysis
- NGOs, SHGs, Pressure Groups
- Finish Health
Have been having lots of bad days recently. Really appreciate everyone who nudges me on the app. Let's keep it going. All the best people :)
Could only finish Real Analysis. Other targets repeat.
Targets:
- Finish Modern Algebra
- NGOs, SHGs, Pressure Groups
- Finish Health
Finished Modern Algebra, almost finished Health.
Targets:
- Selected parts of Complex Analysis, NA & CP
- NGOs, SHGs & Pressure Groups
- RPA
- Remaining tidbits to be test ready
Still far away from the November productivity. Hopefully will pick up the momentum in the coming week.
Hello everyone,
Been dealing with some issues from a long time. Just recently came across this platform on forum to discuss various things about the preparation. So I'm sharing it with this hole that somebody might suggest something useful. I'm based at home doing cse prep. So have exhausted two attempts couldn't clear prelims this time was scoring around 85. Done with the syllabus too for the core subjects ,but didn't had a mains oriented approach so haven't done much answer writing and also haven't done my optional very well too.
But my problem isnt any of this. You see I came to this preparation about 2 years back because of my parents will but then I worked hard from my side too but I feel suffocated sometimes not just sometimes but quite a lot. Last year during covid when the libraries got shut I was in this huge depression...alone...nobody in my family to understand my problems...even suicidal...that was for 2-3 months basically that was a huge loss to me..for my prep. I came out of it through medications and other self help methods. Since then have tried to not fall back to that place. But every and then I start to slip in that zone especially when the results are not showing. I have quite a conservative family which won't let girls live outside home etc. I gave up a job after Btech and every now and then that decision bites me of what I have got myself into basically giving up the independence I could have had. Its this feeling of despair and suffocation that kills me sometimes especially when the journey seems neverending.
My apologies for sharing this rather negative post in here. This might feel like I'm overexaggerating things but I've been dealing with this since a long time and no matter how hard I try to just study and not think of the results...sometimes it becomes really overwhelming.
Hello everyone,
Been dealing with some issues from a long time. Just recently came across this platform on forum to discuss various things about the preparation. So I'm sharing it with this hole that somebody might suggest something useful. I'm based at home doing cse prep. So have exhausted two attempts couldn't clear prelims this time was scoring around 85. Done with the syllabus too for the core subjects ,but didn't had a mains oriented approach so haven't done much answer writing and also haven't done my optional very well too.
But my problem isnt any of this. You see I came to this preparation about 2 years back because of my parents will but then I worked hard from my side too but I feel suffocated sometimes not just sometimes but quite a lot. Last year during covid when the libraries got shut I was in this huge depression...alone...nobody in my family to understand my problems...even suicidal...that was for 2-3 months basically that was a huge loss to me..for my prep. I came out of it through medications and other self help methods. Since then have tried to not fall back to that place. But every and then I start to slip in that zone especially when the results are not showing. I have quite a conservative family which won't let girls live outside home etc. I gave up a job after Btech and every now and then that decision bites me of what I have got myself into basically giving up the independence I could have had. Its this feeling of despair and suffocation that kills me sometimes especially when the journey seems neverending.
My apologies for sharing this rather negative post in here. This might feel like I'm overexaggerating things but I've been dealing with this since a long time and no matter how hard I try to just study and not think of the results...sometimes it becomes really overwhelming.
First thing..Replace "Medication with Meditation"..It really works..! Take out time for yourself..(Do whatever you like .it can be watching a movie..dancing.. sitting alone or may be just looking at the walls)
Now..coming to the main problem.. DISCLAIMER: (IT MIGHT SOUND STRAIGHT FORWARD)
Well..90% of girls face this problem (not allowed to go outside the town) BUT tell me one thing..you are allowed to prepare at home..Right? Are they asking you to leave the preparation?? You were allowed to go to the library naa..! ( Ok i understand Covid restrictions) and a lot of people faced depression problems..mental health issues..
You mentioned (coming to this field was your parents choice..(FEEL LUCKY BRO) otherwise the drill is ohhh you are 21(get married)...
We all were stuck at one place during Lockdown ( and the productivity went down).. "RAMAYAN & MAHABHARAT" were the two choices we had..;) No wonder..I saw each and every episode..;)
And now the JOB PART: check out the stories of some amazing toppers..who left their job.. prepared for this exam and cleared the paper with good ranks..
Whenever I see myself going into another zone .I always see some interviews of ANU KUMARI MA'AM( AIR 2,2017) PLEASE do watch her interviews..
Despite all the odds she cleared this paper..she left her job..(highly paid) came back to her town.. started preparing..The sacrifice she made is irreparable..She came to her aunt's home.. leaving her child..husband..family everyone just to Clear this paper ( And also..she prepared from her home) People use to say..you are not a good mother ye wo.but who cares..! She cleared..and now all that is worth it..
One more.. SAUMYA SHARMA( AIR9,2017) she had some problem ( I guess hearing impairment) and while giving mains she had high fever..but still she cleared..she also prepared from her home..
So accept the reality asap..!! If you can't go outside ok no problem..make it your strength..and not your weakness.( Family is conservative)but still if you are allowed to prepare that is a big achievement...:)
And take a day off on weekends...! Or you can talk to anyone of us..! I hope this text finds you well..:)
Tc Bro..:) And Relaxxxxxxxx..;)
PS: Even I am preparing from my home..( By going to the library)
Hello everyone,
Been dealing with some issues from a long time. Just recently came across this platform on forum to discuss various things about the preparation. So I'm sharing it with this hole that somebody might suggest something useful. I'm based at home doing cse prep. So have exhausted two attempts couldn't clear prelims this time was scoring around 85. Done with the syllabus too for the core subjects ,but didn't had a mains oriented approach so haven't done much answer writing and also haven't done my optional very well too.
But my problem isnt any of this. You see I came to this preparation about 2 years back because of my parents will but then I worked hard from my side too but I feel suffocated sometimes not just sometimes but quite a lot. Last year during covid when the libraries got shut I was in this huge depression...alone...nobody in my family to understand my problems...even suicidal...that was for 2-3 months basically that was a huge loss to me..for my prep. I came out of it through medications and other self help methods. Since then have tried to not fall back to that place. But every and then I start to slip in that zone especially when the results are not showing. I have quite a conservative family which won't let girls live outside home etc. I gave up a job after Btech and every now and then that decision bites me of what I have got myself into basically giving up the independence I could have had. Its this feeling of despair and suffocation that kills me sometimes especially when the journey seems neverending.
My apologies for sharing this rather negative post in here. This might feel like I'm overexaggerating things but I've been dealing with this since a long time and no matter how hard I try to just study and not think of the results...sometimes it becomes really overwhelming.
Though I am not a woman, but as someone who has already given several attempts after leaving a comfortable job, I can understand what you are going through to some extent. Regret is a difficult thing to deal with. These are some of the things that I have found helpful and you may too:
1. Take therapy. Depression is a real thing. You cannot, and should not, deal with everything on your own. Many therapists are taking sessions on phone or video calls. If budget is a concern, I think there are several free initiatives going on as well due to Covid.
2. Take guidance. In previous attempts, I think I was too prideful to ask for help. I am trying to change that. I have found Forum's MGP mentorship to be very helpful. If you know someone who has cleared the exam, you can also try to get in touch with them.
3. Have clarity. I think lack of clarity over the end goal is a major hurdle. Till last year I was trying to prepare well for both CSE and IFoS. That meant preparing three optionals, rather than one. Take time out to think what you want, why you want it. Once that is decided, try to not look back.
4. Try to maintain a sense of joy in preparation and general life. It becomes difficult to be excited about studying things when you have already given a few attempts. But somehow try to preserve that sense of excitement and wonder that you felt when you first studied your UPSC syllabus. And similarly, in general life, try to do small things that give you joy. For me it is simple things like going for a bike ride, practicing guitar or simply just sitting in the sun and reading newspaper.
I hope this helps.
Hi
I am also a btech graduate and exhausted two prelims countinously and i feel same . Your not writing your story but it is the story of majority aspirants jiske ander uske maa - baap ko sarkari officer dikhta hi dikhta hai.. Aur rahi bat IAS ki to kahna hi kya.. mere gharwalo ko sarkari naukari wale full alag duniya ke lagte hai.
MY SOLUTION SOUNDS WEIRDS BUT IT WORKS..
1.SPIRITUALITY: I don't think so why we always appreciate our religion, philosophy and practice after some white supremacist give it a certificate. we have to practice in daily life. For me when i was in the same situation in August I trid to listenJAI HANUMAN CHALISAand do POOJA before i started my studies and also watch Bhagwat geetavideos. Currently i finish 2 chapter of Bhagwat Geeta it help me to decide what to do , So i advice you to give a try.
2.GRIHA KALESH: I found that your educated and assume that you already study women empowerment topic and women related problems so you need to take stand on it. tell your famiy what you think ,what you say show your emotions fully matbal.. ek din khana khane ke bad jab sab khana kha le to machha doapna RAUDRA roop , kali mata wala roop dikha do. Maafi chahta hu agar apni samasya ka samadhan nahi kar pa rahi ho to administration me bhi toyahi feel hoga to kya krogi aap.
3.JOB AND FUTURE:: Recently in the same scenario i decided to go for 5 day study 6th revision and Sunday off.. matlab fully off..
And remember don't attch emotions to exam
study only 6hr for upsc is good and do other stuff for any other job preparation.
4.UPSC:btw your recent score is 80 which is too good your close to game so have patience and don't expect too much to early becausegood things take great time.
last but not the least choose one friend from school , college, tution etc. to share your frustrating chores eg. i have friends who call themselves so communist and i am so called right Binger so we discuss from studies, politics, neighborhood etc, and it will work as my stress buster for us..
so enjoy this time because one day this shall be passed and you tell how you survived and become victorious.. ✌
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Hello everyone,
Been dealing with some issues from a long time. Just recently came across this platform on forum to discuss various things about the preparation. So I'm sharing it with this hole that somebody might suggest something useful. I'm based at home doing cse prep. So have exhausted two attempts couldn't clear prelims this time was scoring around 85. Done with the syllabus too for the core subjects ,but didn't had a mains oriented approach so haven't done much answer writing and also haven't done my optional very well too.
But my problem isnt any of this. You see I came to this preparation about 2 years back because of my parents will but then I worked hard from my side too but I feel suffocated sometimes not just sometimes but quite a lot. Last year during covid when the libraries got shut I was in this huge depression...alone...nobody in my family to understand my problems...even suicidal...that was for 2-3 months basically that was a huge loss to me..for my prep. I came out of it through medications and other self help methods. Since then have tried to not fall back to that place. But every and then I start to slip in that zone especially when the results are not showing. I have quite a conservative family which won't let girls live outside home etc. I gave up a job after Btech and every now and then that decision bites me of what I have got myself into basically giving up the independence I could have had. Its this feeling of despair and suffocation that kills me sometimes especially when the journey seems neverending.
My apologies for sharing this rather negative post in here. This might feel like I'm overexaggerating things but I've been dealing with this since a long time and no matter how hard I try to just study and not think of the results...sometimes it becomes really overwhelming.
Hey, just two cents apart from all this - Take your stand always in front of your family. Its difficult I know, but it has to be done kabhi na kabhi. It is required.
And let go of your past and your job, there are plenty of oppurtunities there in the world, take them. Write different exams and try getting out of the situation you're in because that's the only way.
About depression - medication + meditation.
Try enjoying the process, make friends within family which might include your mother, brother-sister and sometimes show them how you feel, if you're angry let them know, let them not have absolute control over you and your emotions.
Hello everyone,
Been dealing with some issues from a long time. Just recently came across this platform on forum to discuss various things about the preparation. So I'm sharing it with this hole that somebody might suggest something useful. I'm based at home doing cse prep. So have exhausted two attempts couldn't clear prelims this time was scoring around 85. Done with the syllabus too for the core subjects ,but didn't had a mains oriented approach so haven't done much answer writing and also haven't done my optional very well too.
But my problem isnt any of this. You see I came to this preparation about 2 years back because of my parents will but then I worked hard from my side too but I feel suffocated sometimes not just sometimes but quite a lot. Last year during covid when the libraries got shut I was in this huge depression...alone...nobody in my family to understand my problems...even suicidal...that was for 2-3 months basically that was a huge loss to me..for my prep. I came out of it through medications and other self help methods. Since then have tried to not fall back to that place. But every and then I start to slip in that zone especially when the results are not showing. I have quite a conservative family which won't let girls live outside home etc. I gave up a job after Btech and every now and then that decision bites me of what I have got myself into basically giving up the independence I could have had. Its this feeling of despair and suffocation that kills me sometimes especially when the journey seems neverending.
My apologies for sharing this rather negative post in here. This might feel like I'm overexaggerating things but I've been dealing with this since a long time and no matter how hard I try to just study and not think of the results...sometimes it becomes really overwhelming.
A general advice. Don't stress too much. Always remember, your emotions are temporary. It'll pass anyway.
One of my friends had summarised Vipassana as: "We experience the emotions, positive or negative, for a very few moments. If we could control our emotions for those few moments, we'd have control over ourselves. Vipassana trains us for that same purpose".
Now, sit alone, quiet for some time. You would notice that your mind wanders every where. You think something for a moment, then suddenly your mind jumps to another thing. Then to another. The main reason is our lifestyle. We are doing so many things at the same time. We think that everything is under our control. But it's not. We can only focus on one thing at a time.
So just do one thing at a time. And take out time for yourself to just sit quietly, alone. See what all your mind thinks. Train your mind to wander less and focus more on one thing. To organise your thoughts, you can write journals.
See, there is a feedback loop in our minds. If you think only negative things, your mind will make a negative loop. And you'll be stuck in that negative loop only. But if you channelise your thoughts towards positivity, a positive loop will form. Then you'll not worry about the consequences, rather you'll enjoy the process.
Make some good friends. Discuss ideas and your feelings with them. If you don't find such friends, better to not make any. Go for morning walks. Plant some trees, see them growing. Develop some habits. Eat healthy. Live happily. Let off your ego. Write journals. Avoid social media. Avoid Netflix too (kabhi kabhi chalta hai). Listen to the music (without using headphones). Don't expect to achieve too much in a day. Learn something new everyday.
If you need medication, go for it, and never discontinue it without doctor's advice, even if you feel alright after some time. I say this because I've seen people suffering just because of negligence.
I saw so many posts related to the condition of media and Judiciary in our country. I'd say, don't watch those channels. Those are not meant for us. TV is a propaganda tool.
And don't bother about the 'Game of thrones'. These are the struggle for power between The Sparrows, the 7 kingdoms, Dragon mother, while White walkers are at the doorsteps of our Kingdom. We should identify our role in this big game, and work towards serving our people. Because "All men must serve (Valar Dohaeris)", and "Winter is coming".
Last time, the winter (cold war) was very long. It's going to be even longer, it is said.
P.S: GoT fans will get it.
Hello everyone,
Been dealing with some issues from a long time. Just recently came across this platform on forum to discuss various things about the preparation. So I'm sharing it with this hole that somebody might suggest something useful. I'm based at home doing cse prep. So have exhausted two attempts couldn't clear prelims this time was scoring around 85. Done with the syllabus too for the core subjects ,but didn't had a mains oriented approach so haven't done much answer writing and also haven't done my optional very well too.
But my problem isnt any of this. You see I came to this preparation about 2 years back because of my parents will but then I worked hard from my side too but I feel suffocated sometimes not just sometimes but quite a lot. Last year during covid when the libraries got shut I was in this huge depression...alone...nobody in my family to understand my problems...even suicidal...that was for 2-3 months basically that was a huge loss to me..for my prep. I came out of it through medications and other self help methods. Since then have tried to not fall back to that place. But every and then I start to slip in that zone especially when the results are not showing. I have quite a conservative family which won't let girls live outside home etc. I gave up a job after Btech and every now and then that decision bites me of what I have got myself into basically giving up the independence I could have had. Its this feeling of despair and suffocation that kills me sometimes especially when the journey seems neverending.
My apologies for sharing this rather negative post in here. This might feel like I'm overexaggerating things but I've been dealing with this since a long time and no matter how hard I try to just study and not think of the results...sometimes it becomes really overwhelming.
I can feel what you're going through. I too am preparing from home, have failed prelims once, and have no job right now. About the conservativeness, my father is against me going to the library which is in my own city.
The only solution in a situation like this is to be patient and to keep going. If that seems too hard to implement alone, seek help. Make friends (count me in if you want to). Go to therapy if you can, and if not, just allow yourself a vent. Don't burden yourself with your emotions, share them, relieve yourself.
One more thing, If your score was 85, be confident that you're ready, just a little more work and you'll be there. You are able enough.
After multiple failed attempts to get back on track when I dcd to strt with all zeal on 13th ...I got sick....after a non productive week feeling kindof lost n disappointed....after a long break it always feels like I have to strt again ...it's been more than two months after prelims .......will strt fresh from tomorrow morning with a hope to get back on track finally
M writing it here so dat I can stay accountable.... takecare everyone :)
Is there anyone who is facing the dilemma of moving out for studies or staying at home ......
I have all privacy n luxuries to prepare with no disturbance at home ......but at times I feel m way too comfortable here n lacking competition ...dat results in procrastination
Basically when m all focused concentrated n able to give my 💯 (which is mostly when exam is near)then I feel it's the best to stay here only
Earlier I thought of moving out fr sure after prelims because at times I feel very much isolated n pressurized (since not left with any social life ....not even friends )
Any suggestions ?
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