Civil Services Mains 2020 Results: In or Out ? Way ahead, gratitude and Pain
The Civils Mains result has been declared. This thread is for sharing your grief , joy , mixed feelings - absolutely anything and everything.
Suddenly, I am having this fear that my optional is still far from complete and it will remain so because Prelims fear is kicking in fast. Next week is going to be very crucial.
Please suggest how to get over this phase. I don't want to waste a week being in a dilemma between studying optional or studying for Prelims.
@RonWeasley Hey, I can totally relate to panicking about what to prioritize and how to move ahead. Firstly, I usually try to objectively assess where my preparation stands whether its in context of prelims or optional. Being truthful to myself is the first step because then I can strategize better. There's still time to go for prelims. You can afford giving a week to your optional if that calms you down. Focus on getting some parts of the optional done very well so that you feel confident about having gotten something totally out of the way. However, once you make a plan, do stick to it. Don't let anxiety confuse you. You can very easily make up for the prelims prep in the next 90 days after the optional week. Best wishes, friend.
Thank you.
I thought about it a lot as well last night and converged toward the conclusion as suggested by you. I definitely can afford to give 1 more week to optional and my fear for Prelims, although rational and necessary, can wait.
whatonly,THE_MECHANIC
Logged onto my Facebook in a weak moment after three years, and realised 40 people (that i for sure know) on my friend list already have gotten married, and/or had kids. Got traumatised and decided to get back to ethics as a safe space.
Happened to come across photos of two classmates today who got married recently. Very similar reaction - started reading kinship in sociology. That is the only acceptable marriage discourse.
MaeveWiley,Logged onto my Facebook in a weak moment after three years, and realised 40 people (that i for sure know) on my friend list already have gotten married, and/or had kids. Got traumatised and decided to get back to ethics as a safe space.Happened to come across photos of two classmates today who got married recently. Very similar reaction - started reading kinship in sociology. That is the only acceptable marriage discourse.
It seems like way too much work as well, studying seems comparatively easier 💅🏻
Logged onto my Facebook in a weak moment after three years, and realised 40 people (that i for sure know) on my friend list already have gotten married, and/or had kids. Got traumatised and decided to get back to ethics as a safe space.Thank god I deleted my account so chik chik no jhik jhik
Didn’t delete for puraani yaadein sakes, it I might be rethinking that soon.
peterparker,
I'm having major FOMO after seeing so many people recommend OnlyIAS materials. Till now I've been reading Forum's notes on society, internal security, governance, disaster management and agriculture. Please help.
Please stick to one source only. I also have fomo that majority people refer to vision ias material which I personally dislike a lot.
You, do you bro !! Do whatever is easier for you to grasp and not boring. Don't think too much about what others are reading. If you are able to solve previous year questions from the material that you are using, then it is more than sufficient. Revise and reiterate that.
Logged onto my Facebook in a weak moment after three years, and realised 40 people (that i for sure know) on my friend list already have gotten married, and/or had kids. Got traumatised and decided to get back to ethics as a safe space.
Something similar happened when I logged back on linkedin.
The first five posts were:
1. Friend 1 gets into iimb
2. Junior 1 gets into iisc masters
3. Friend 2 does a job switch
4. Senior 1 gets a job in BCG
5. Senior 2 gets into iimb
I am happy for these people but couldn't help feeling the only visible change I went through was putting on 10 kgs😂 Had to deactivate the LinkedIn account 😂
Logged onto my Facebook in a weak moment after three years, and realised 40 people (that i for sure know) on my friend list already have gotten married, and/or had kids. Got traumatised and decided to get back to ethics as a safe space.Something similar happened when I logged back on linkedin.
The first five posts were:
1. Friend 1 gets into iimb
2. Junior 1 gets into iisc masters
3. Friend 2 does a job switch
4. Senior 1 gets a job in BCG
5. Senior 2 gets into iimb
I am happy for these people but couldn't help feeling the only visible change I went through was putting on 10 kgs😂 Had to deactivate the LinkedIn account 😂
I’m really happy for all these people (assuming they are happy too), but more than fomo it instigates a “what if” thought experiment. Its usually dispassionate, but i cant help but think in an alternate universe, I would have been just like them and that scares me to think if I’m even ready for things like that
Trigger warning: Death
Today there was a blast in front of the apartments where I live. A person died, lower body blown to bits. I was out for a walk when it happened but I returned to wails, police and a huge crowd.
From whatever I know, someone in the housing complex opposite to ours must have a party planned. There was a suited up person who had brought someone with him to fill up balloons. They were most likely using hydrogen and something must have happened that led to a huge blast.
Some things come to mind. The dichotomy of life, while one side merely wanted some balloons, balloons were almost definitely this person’s source of income. Initially I avoided going to the scene of this tragedy but couldn’t stay away for too long. The body is still there, in half, a while back people were still trying to find pieces I guess. Strangely, I still saw nicely dressed up people leave from the same complex, some walking around nonchalantly and others just viewing the scene with unaffected faces. The police came and left, an ambulance came and left but the body is still there.
Life is so sudden. This is the 2nd tragic incident I’m witnessing in the past 1.5 weeks. The other one was where someone’s throat or face was slit due to a stray line of ‘manjha’.
In both these cases, there’s extreme contrast, one side merely enjoying the little things in life, flying kites, having balloons and the other meeting fatal ends through these seemingly innocent sources of joy.
I feel numb.
Trigger warning: Death
Today there was a blast in front of the apartments where I live. A person died, lower body blown to bits. I was out for a walk when it happened but I returned to wails, police and a huge crowd.
From whatever I know, someone in the housing complex opposite to ours must have a party planned. There was a suited up person who had brought someone with him to fill up balloons. They were most likely using hydrogen and something must have happened that led to a huge blast.
Some things come to mind. The dichotomy of life, while one side merely wanted some balloons, balloons were almost definitely this person’s source of income. Initially I avoided going to the scene of this tragedy but couldn’t stay away for too long. The body is still there, in half, a while back people were still trying to find pieces I guess. Strangely, I still saw nicely dressed up people leave from the same complex, some walking around nonchalantly and others just viewing the scene with unaffected faces. The police came and left, an ambulance came and left but the body is still there.
Life is so sudden. This is the 2nd tragic incident I’m witnessing in the past 1.5 weeks. The other one was where someone’s throat or face was slit due to a stray line of ‘manjha’.
In both these cases, there’s extreme contrast, one side merely enjoying the little things in life, flying kites, having balloons and the other meeting fatal ends through these seemingly innocent sources of joy.
I feel numb.
I am numb. I am so sorry you had to witness this. I can't imagine being a witness to something as tragic as this.
But, then, this is the truth about human existance- mortality.
Maybe the departed soul rest in peace :(
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