Civil Services Mains 2020 Results: In or Out ? Way ahead, gratitude and Pain
The Civils Mains result has been declared. This thread is for sharing your grief , joy , mixed feelings - absolutely anything and everything.
D7,
Friends, this is nothing related to the ongoing conversation on this thread. Just wanted to plug in an interesting read I came across in today's IE. I request everyone to read this once.
Issey pehle pichley saal wali anxiety aur panic attacks every aspirants, I urge everyone to take care of yourselves, and your near and dear ones. No one deserves this feeling. And in case anyone intends to vent or just need a listener, my dm's are ALWAYS OPEN. Am not a professional, na hi am a koi doctor, but I promise a healthy and safe conversation.
Keep preparing. That's our only escapism.
https://indianexpress.com/article/lifestyle/feelings/covid19-pandemic-emotional-state-mental-health-blah-feeling-its-called-languishing-7280945/
Now analysis is that since my younger brother is appearing for interview in his first attempt , yesterday we had a discussion on upsc Calendar and following are the conclusion that I can share -
1. Upsc is renowned constitutional body it will never create backlog of two vacancy together .
Keeping this in mind even if earliest interview starts from 15 may the final results would be announced near 10 July .
That means upsc preliminary exam is postponed .
2. Now in the meanwhile upsc will conduct epfo exam on 27 june/4 July .
3 . prelims would be on most probably 29 August .
All the best .
Where are the insiders?
@LionKing2021 @Yo_Yo_Choti_Singh any news on postponement of pre?
Epfo might happen on two of the following dates - 4th July or 29 August assuming that CSE pre happens as per scheduled date. In the event of CSE being postponed then EPFO will be conducted on 4th of July and CSE on 29 August. These two dates are reserved by Upsc for one day examinations. Another date reserved by Upsc is of 12th of October.
was last years rescheduling to october based on similar logic though? they dont need to follow calendar restrictions if entire timeline is anyways disrupted. no?
I'm here with some irresponsible advice - chill. Just take a breather for a day or two. Watch a series, a movie, complete a fiction book. Don't study.
I studied through the delay last year, par faayda kya hua lol.
but uve made it to intv right? fayda to tha
Haha I made it to the list too. That's why "irresponsible" advice. But the agony over studies that I had last year through the delay gave no productivity boost to my prep. I've realised that now.
ssver2,NOLEisGOAT
NOLEisGOAT,
I might be posting this on the wrong thread, but here goes. Just trying to clear my head.
I did not clear CS Mains 2020. I was in a great deal of pain. Maybe I still am, but dwelling on it does not make it any better. I have two more attempts left. After a lot of introspection, I have decided to give the 2021 attempt. There are an umpteen number of reasons why I should not give the attempt, but I have made a conscious commitment to not dwell on them. "Life is available only in the present moment", I've read.
As regards preparation, the last two months were wholly wasted. I will be joining work in two weeks time. I will have to work roughly 10 hours a day on average on weekdays. Weekends are off, and for the most part, I would be free.
Until the marks are out, I wouldn't know for sure where I had gone wrong in CSM 2020. However, if I should stand a chance in Mains 2021, my gut says that I would have to work on: a) De-specialising in GS-2; b) Having a much more structured preparation for GS-I; c) Writing safe essays; d) Have higher standards of what constitutes an average answer; e)Being sure of compulsory language paper.
I can only afford to spend roughly 3 hours a day on average on weekdays and 6-8 hours a day on weekends. However, if I can ensure that I use this time productively, I feel that I can get to where I want to be with respect to preparation, come Mains 2021.
I am jumping into this being fully aware that even these efforts might not result in success. I am not doing this because it is the best job in the world which everyone must aspire to. I am not pursuing "my dream job." My why is intensely personal. I am doing this because I want to and because I chose to. The challenge excites me, even though I hate that it does. I guess it is my self-interest that drives me to aspire for selfless service after all.
My relationship with UPSC has long been at its toxic worst, but something disallows me from walking away. In this case, something forces me to be the creep who understands the word "no" to mean "try harder." Preparing for the attempt feels like torture, but walking away without a stronger fight still feels like regret. I must choose the lesser evil. Closure, one way or another. Wish me luck.
I don't know if I should post this here or not but I have nowhere else to go. Some of you may know me as I used to post my daily routine here. I stopped doing that because my whole family got infected with COVID.
My father is no more as COVID took him away from me. I have lost my pillar of strength. The person who stood by me in this journey. The person who always gave his all to fulfill my hopes and aspirations. I don't know if I will ever find the courage to attempt this exam again without his support. I feel lost. I have no idea what will affect my mother more, COVID or the shock of losing my father.
Life will never be the same for me again.Oh papa...
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